𝗪𝗥𝗢𝗡𝗚 𝗡𝗨𝗠𝗕𝗘𝗥 | 𝘫𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯

⎡𝟭𝟴⎦

⎡𝗦𝗘𝗨𝗡𝗚𝗠𝗜𝗡⎦

I walk outside and as if the world wants to mock my pain, it starts raining.

I chuckle and look up towards the sky.

This is the perfect time to let my emotions out, everyone will just think it's the rain.

And with that, I let out the tears I've been holding in, crouching down and burying my head into my knees as I sob.

Why did I slap him?

I don't know, it felt like my hand moved on its own.

It felt like I had no control over my body or my thoughts.

Innie's my friend, so why can't I let him be happy?

Why am I so selfish that I'd ruin his happiness for my own greedy desires?

I love him-

Wait...

I don't...

I don't love him.

I don't deserve to love anyone.

I don't even deserve to live.

Jeongin hates me, so what reason do I have to live?

Everything will be better once I'm gone.

Jeongin will forget me and be happy with Chan.

I need to do this for Jeongin...

I get up and walk soullessly through the streets, stopping in front of a tall, abandoned, school building.

Seungmin: Perfect.

I walk into the building and go up the stairs to the top floor.

There isn't even a railing on the edge to stop me.

Even better.

I walk to the edge and take a deep breath.

Seungmin: This is for my own good.

I get ready to take a step forward, but suddenly, someone wraps their arm around my waist and pulls me back.

I groan as I fall on the cold, dusty ground.

I open my eyes and see a guy hovering above me.

He looks...

Ethereal...

?: What were you thinking?! What happened to you that made you want to end your life?! Don't you feel guilty for the people who actually care about you?!

Seungmin: No one cares about me, I don't have any reason to live. Why did you stop me!

?: If you really feel that way, why can't you work to change that? Isn't that better than ending your life? Or are you a coward that just wants the easy way out?

I furrow my eyebrows, offended at what he said.

Seungmin: Look mister, I don't know who you are, but you have no right to insult me like that.

?: Why can't I? Is it not true?

Seungmin: What- no, of course, it's not true.

?: Then prove it.

Seungmin: Huh?

?: Prove that you aren't a coward.

Seungmin: Okay, but how?

?: I'll get off you and if you don't try to jump off again, you've proved that you're not a coward.

Seungmin: ...Fine

He gets off of me and stands up, motioning for me to do the same.

I also stand up and look at him.

He waits for a minute to see if I'll try to jump off again or not and smiles when I stay still.

?: See? That wasn't so hard. Death is never the right choice, okay?

I nod my head and he turns around to leave.

Suddenly, I grab his hand, slightly shocked at my own actions.

Seungmin: Y-you didn't tell me your name...

He turns around and looks at me with a mischievous smirk.

?: And why do you want to know?

Seungmin: Well, you saved my life...

?: How does that matter?

Seungmin: I just- you said to work hard and change that I have nobody...

?: So?

Seungmin: Well, I thought... I could start with you.

The man chuckles and it feels as if time has stopped.

He looks even more handsome when he laughs...

?: Since you asked so nicely, I'll tell you.

I look at him, curious for what his name is.

?: My name is Hyunjin, Hwang Hyunjin.