Love & Hate || Nishimura Riki ✓

shy

my hands are slightly shaking because of the anxiousness while waiting for her answer as sweats are slowly moistening my forehead

when suddenly her mouth open to speak

"do you really like me ?" she shyly asks as reddish shade formed on her cheeks "yes of course " i answered right away still nervous "then yes i will be yours" woah i didn't expect that .. so quick

"are you for real ? " she smiled at me then nods .. "i hope you're not pressured shai "

"no , no I'm not ! I really mean it riki" so thia means she's really mine ?! oh my god I'm so happy .. like really, really happy !

"but i still want to court you even though you're mine now" she widened her eyes .. gosh i know I'm cool .. yeah yeah I'm cool

"really? if you say so " i just hummed in response

an awkward moment of silence comes in between the both of us

"umm,  do we have to tell jay oppa .. we're workmates isn't it prohibited ? " oh right jay hyung

" no .. jay hyung doesn't say anything like that but if it's okay to you , we could tell him but if you're not yet ready , we can make it a secret for now"

i can tell that she's thinking .. " maybe we should keep it a secret for now riki plus i guess jay oppa would tell it to jake if we tell him .. i don't want dad to know this he'll scold me "

" hmm okay it's our secret but for now , can i hold your hand ?" i asked her and she blushed

she nodded shyly " aww why are you so shy ? so cute "

" aisshhh stop riki .. you're embarrassing me "

" haha you don't have to be shy .. now look at me " i stared at her lovingly .. she slowly raised her head and looked at me but not having an eye contact

" look me in the eyes shai " i said again

"i can't " i held her chin and level her head same as mine so we could look at each other's eyes"you know what shai .. your eyes are so beautiful " she blushed as i am too

" umm , really ?" she asks " uh huh .. you're beautiful " she smiled .. she's so beautiful

" you too .. you have beautiful eyes riki and i love your smile .. please always smile for me " my heart just skipped a beat .. oh my god I'm not ready for that

" from now on , i will always smile because of you " she hugged me and i could feel like I'm flying

her hug was so comfortable .. im so happy ..

i tuck some strands of her hair in her ear  "i really like you shai " i whispered

" me too riki , i like you "

we stayed in each other's arms for a while .. our hearts are beating simultaneously .. they're beating for each other and i could tell that i am so happy right now ..

but are we being quick ? do we have to take it slow ? i know we're young and we're not ready yet for this but we can make it right ?! i hope everything will be okay from now on .. and i wish this moment would stay forever

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i walk her home since it's getting dark .. i was holding her hands since earlier . her hands was so soft and comfy to hold . her's fit perfectly on mine when i intertwined it .

i glance at her and she was just looking straight infront .. she's still shy because of what happened . she can't look at me

"shai" i called her

she looked at me and then look at the ground

"hey what are you looking there ?"

"umm , there's some dirt in my shoe " i look at her shoe and there's no dirt in it lmao

" but there's none " she glance at me then stomped her feet to take the invisible dirt

" yahh stop doing that .. and focus on me " I ordered in a calm tone

she stopped what she's doing then looked at our intertwined hands .

" riki .. why are you so calm ? i mean am I the only one who's feeling flustered here ?"

" haha you know shai .. it's awkward for me too . I'm shy of course and i don't know what to do also but i just go with the flow and do what my mind says .. i have to react opposite as yours so that it'll not be awkward for us"

she's now looking at me

" we can get used to it in time .. i know it's quite awkward for now but trust me everything will be comfortable for us soon "

" O-okay ? it's my first time being in a relationship riki .. that's why i don't know what to do or how to act "

" it's my first time too  .. you're the first girl i ever love " she gasped

"woah now you love me ? are you for real ?"

"why ? i don't just like you but i love you shai "

"wait omg .. you love me !! how come ? we've only known each other for a short time and you're telling me that you love me " she can't believe .. i can't believe in myself either lol

" chill shai .. i know this is so quick and i don't want to rush also but I can't really control my feelings .. i love you  "

" gosh riki I'm not ready for this "

" i know .. i am not also , but i just want you to know that i love you even you don't love me  for now , i will make you fall for me even more "
she coughed

" hahaha riki why are you like that ? i like you and there's a possibility that this will turn to love someday so let's just enjoy and do things normally " she assured me

" i guess you're right but how can we do things normally when you can't look at me how you normally do ?"

" i said I'm shy "

" yeah you're shy .. shai hahaha " gosh they sound the same

"yahh don't laugh " she hit my hands that's holding her and i lost a grip of her

she run away from me .. i guess I'mma chase her .. I don't know that she's into playing tag

i run to chase her .. she's so fast . She halted when a car stopped in front of her .

the window of the car lowered by half and it shows the eye portion of the man but i can't clearly see it  . I guess it's her dad

she just lowered her head and entered the car

she didn't even looked back at me .. i don't know but i feel hurt . But i understand .. she's afraid of her father . she didn't want it to know that she had a boyfriend .

opps the boyfriend sounds awkward to me but it felt good also aahhhh

i just looked at the car while it drove away  ..

" hmm .. I'll just see her tommorow at the cafe " i sighed

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