Owning My Ex (Published)

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When Kendrick and I broke up, so much realization hit me. Unlike when Luhennce and I broke up.

Luhennce may be my first love, but Kendrick taught me so much in life. Nang dumating siya, maraming nagbago, he challenges the bad sides of me that I don't know anymore the difference between love and obsession. But with the help of Sabria, I found it out. Kung hindi pa dumating si Kendrick, hindi ko maiisip na I was just obsessed over Luhennce, dahil nasanay na ako sa presence niya, nasanay ako na ako lagi ang inuuna, nasanay ako na lahat ng gusto ko nakukuha ko at nasanay akong ako lang ang babae sa buhay niya.

Kendrick left a great impact on my life, from being selfish to selfless, from being desperate to have self-respect, from loving someone too much to loving myself first. From getting what I want to giving someone a hand. From being close-minded to being open-minded, and becoming one who is willing to see the reality behind my ambitious personality.

And now that he's right in front of me, on bended knee... It makes me cry even harder.

"K-Kendrick..." Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin. "Will you marry me, Amanda?"

Mariin ko siyang pinakatitigan bago tumango tango. I saw how his tears dripped down before he put the ring on my finger.

Mabilis siyang tumayo at niyakap ako pagkatapos.

"I knew it the first time I saw you. Swear to God, I know you're the one... Amanda."

"I-I thought you already had someone." Marahan niya akong binitawan at hinawakan ang mukha ko.

"Someone? Gagawin ko ba ito kung meron?" I pursed my lips, and he just wiped my tears.

"I heard you before. You called someone 'honey' sino 'yon?" Kumunot ang noo niya at maya maya'y ngumisi bago ako inakbayan at inalalayan pabalik sa tolda kung nasaan ang table.

"That's my secretary, and her name is Honey. Next time, na magseselos ka ipaalam mo na para masasabi ko sa'yo kung karapatdapat ba pinagseselosan mo." Bigla akong namula, gosh! nagselos ako sa pangalan? How unreasonable, Amanda. Pero at least! nalinaw 'di ba?!

"So, you and Stevan talked?"

"Actually, half of what he said is true, but not the surprise thing. Well, I promised him, his girl will really see you." Napakunot ang noo ko at napailing. Nagulat pa ako ng may magsidatingan na nakawaiter and waitress uniform. May dalang wine at wine glass ang isa, ang isa naman ay pagkain. Merong nag-play nanamang music, but this time it's a mellow one.

"I didn't really expect this," I mumbled.

"That's good. At least hindi nasayang effort ko kasi na-surprise talaga kita." Nangingiting sabi niya kaya hanggang sa matapos kaming kumain, hindi nawala ang ngiti ko. After that, he gathered all the important things and asked me for a trip, to which I said yes. Parang napakahaba ng oras namin ng gabing iyon hanggang sa mapagpasyahan naming huminto saglit. It was near the beach, nasa boulevard kami, at wala ng masyadong tao sa malapit sa hinintuan namin. We both leaned on his car while facing the beach, and I was surprised to see that he bought drinks for us—non-alcoholic drinks... just a cola.