Owning My Ex (Published)

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"I am so stupid," he says, ruffling his hair. He couldn't believe what he just found out. Kita ko parin kung paano kumislap ang mga mata niya. He wanted to cry, but he's refraining from doing so.

I can even feel his harsh breathing, parang ano mang oras ay gagawin na niyang magwala. He licked his lips before looking at me. After I cried, he waited for me to calm down while hugging me so tight. I can see that. He seems full of regrets. And it's a good sign that he still cares for me... Now I am sure, very sure, that hindi ako nawala sa puso niya.

"It was hard to accept. Everyone around you blamed me, and I didn't bother to tell them the truth or to explain myself."

"W-why? You should have told them to tell me earlier! That guy has to pay! I won't let him escape this time. I swear, I'll make him pay." Galit na sabi niya at ngumisi lang ako bago nag-angat ng tingin sa kalangitang, nagsisimula ng dumilim. I can now see stars, and a moment later, the moon will shine.

"Well, I just realized that silence is more powerful than proving a point. I don't need to prove myself to anyone, but because I love you, I tried. I want to clear my name, I want to earn your trust again, but... I realized your trust wasn't enough to make you stay with me and asked what happened. You didn't even ask, pagkakita na pagkakita mo palang sa akin, agad mo nang tinapos ang kung anong mayroon tayo."

"A-amanda..." I closed my eyes before looking at him and showing him a weak smile. "But, no matter how much it hurts, all I want is to own you again." Marahan siyang lumapit sa akin, he embraced me, and I felt the warmth I've been longing for.

"I'm so sorry, Amanda. God knows how much I want to punish myself right now." I breathed out and raised my hand to hug him back. "At least, you already know my reason. I wish I could earn your trust again now, and let's be friends."

Naramdaman ko ang pag buntong hininga niya at pagtango na kinangisi ko. He's guilty. He wouldn't dare refuse any of my requests. He'll become a puppet too, if ever. And I'll take that chance to slowly cage him on my side.

After a while, we're back on the road. Hinatid niya ako sa unit, and my smile didn't leave my lips. Nang makaalis siya ay ngingisingisi akonh pumasok sa unit ko.

Kendrick texted me, and I was in the mood to read it. He updated me about their little friendship, and I replied, Good job'. Kinabukasan ay busy ako sa trabaho, but Luhennce and I never lost contact. Madalas akong mag-send sa kaniya ng messages na nirereplayan na niya. Nung tumawag ako sinagot niya, when I offered him lunch, he immediately said yes, without hesitation. It feels like we're back in the old days. Sana mag-break na sila ni Clarisse. Hinatid din niya ako sa unit ko after work, and when I offered him a dinner, he stayed and ate with me. Because of him, it wasn't a long day for me. I heard he had already quit his job, and I have no say about it.

"Amanda!" Mabilis akong napatayo ng humahangos na lumapit sa akin si Luhennce. We agreed to have breakfast together at 5 a.m. Ewan maganda kasi ang sunrise, kaya nanood muna kami kanina habang pasikat ang araw, and we ended up eating breakfast. Kaso may tumawag sa kaniya saglit at heto nga't humahangos na lumapit sa 'kin.

"What's wrong?"

"Let's go to August's place." I creased my forehead, mabilis akong tumayo." What's with August?"