"that's what they want:
a God damned show
a lit billboard
in the middle of hell.
that's what they want,
that bunch of
dull
inarticulate
safe
dreary
admirers of
carnivals".
"What they want" by Charles Bukowski.
I can see the rain pouring as I am standing close my bedroom's window. In just a matter of minutes I'm supposed to perform, and I know there's no way I'm avoiding being soaked by the rain on my way there.
I take my black leather jacket and put it on, I grab my keys and in the exact moment I'm heading off, someone knocks the door.
-No shit. - I whisper. I am going to be late. I open the door when a familiar big smile greets me.
-What are you doing here? I'm leaving. - I say.
-I'm happy to see you too, bro.- My sister's smile doesn't fade and she gets to break the shield that I was building with my own arms and passes through. She stares back at me as if she were studying me. – Where are you going?
- I'm performing tonight. Now, if you please, can you leave? I'll see you tomorrow, ok?
She nods and points at my hand. – And where's your guitar?
-Fuck. – I go back to my room and there it is. Standing on its stand, making me feel like a fool. It's not the first time I forget it. My head is a fucking mess lately.
-Have you called mum? - Gemma shouts from the hall.
-No, but I was going to. - I shout back. I return to where she is, and I catch her mocking me. - Shut your face. I really was.
- Yes, sure. Anyways, she told me to tell you that this weekend she's going to prepare a family dinner. You're in, right?
-Yes. I'm in.
-Great! So, my job here is done. - She claps her hands on her thighs and I nod staring at her waiting for her to keep talking.
-That's all you had to say? You know you just could've called me to tell me this, don't you?
- And you know you wouldn't pick your damn phone up, Harry. - Well, she was not wrong.
- Fuck off. -I say playing her own game.
-I love you! - She says as she's going through the door and heading the stairs.
-I love you too. - I mutter as I'm closing the door with my keys and heads to the lift.
- I knew it! - She shouts and the echoing of the stairs room makes her voice louder.
I smile as I close the door behind me.
***
I arrive at the backdoor of the bar soaked. There's no one to welcome me in. The vibe in here is so mysterious, everything is covered by shadows, just a few bulbs light a few tables and the stage's lightening are off. I feel my shoes full of water and I can hear the squishy sound they make as I walk. I growl at the sound. I shake my feet in the air in order to get the water out but the floor is so slippery that I end up falling down.
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