Ryeji - What is love?

Chapter 28 - Light

| Time Lapse | A long month later
Chaeryoung had tried out for JYP and got in. So they all trained together for 2 weeks and finally got a break. But this break wasn't what Ryujin had hoped for.

POV | Ryujin
Yeji was gone. I didn't know what I did. But now.. she's gone. This was the fifth day without her. I hated it every second of it. I sighed, looking over at her empty side of the bed. I wanted her there. I decided to get up... I did my morning routine.. and sulked.. big time sulking. I put on a crop top with a jacket on and jeans. I didn't care if I looked horrible.. I didn't care if I felt horrible. I just didn't care about anything anymore. I hadn't felt like this in three months.. before I met Yeji. To be honest, I'm 100% sure she's in Jeonju.. but I don't want to bother her. I know she hadn't been kidnapped or anything because Jihyo has contacted me and told me she's alright. So she's probably in Jeonju. But that was it. She didn't tell me if Yeji hates me.. or anything. I tried to forget about it so I could just try to get through today. I put on my shoes, tying the shoelaces. I looked up to see Lia standing there, "You ready to go?" I nodded. I hadn't talked since Yeji left. I felt broken.. where I just could not talk. I had to write everything.. or type everything. And yes.. I've tried to contact Yeji. 137 tries. Emailed, called, texted, etc. No response. I was sick of it. I put on my backpack, walking out with Lia. "So Ryu... don't you think it's time to move on?" I stopped, I felt even more broken. "Ryujin.. come on. It's been five fucking days and she hasn't texted, called, emailed or anything! I think it's time to move on." I stared in the distance. Jonghyun was walking towards me. He put a hand on my hand. "Remember you need to find true love to stay alive.. you're getting weaker and weaker everyday.. because you haven't found true love. You have one day left.. before.. death.." My lip started to tremble.. if I didn't find true love.. I would die.. I don't want that to happen. He disappeared. "Ryu! Ryujin! Hello?!" Lia yelled. I got on my knees, holding my hands, he was right.. I was getting weak. I could feel my muscles give up.. my chest give out.. I was gonna die. "Ryujin?!" Lia yelled, getting on the ground, and grabbing my hand. It was extremely pale. She gasped, "Ryujin?!" I looked at her, "D-die.." I tried to make out. "Die?! What the hell do you mean?!" I coughed, "Soon.." Her eyes widened, she got what I was saying, "We've got to get you to the hospital!" I grabbed her hand, "No.. Yeji." Lia was so confused, "Yeji? How is she gonna help?! She's literally gone, Ryujin! We have no idea where she is.." I looked down, "Then.. I'll die." Lia grabbed my hand, "Ryujin! You're not gonna die!" I looked up at her, "I will. Just so you know.. I love you a lot.." Lia looked at me with tears, "Stop saying that! You're not dying!" I blinked, "This is gonna sound crazy.. but I need to find true love.. and if I don't.. then death has me." My body gave up. I fell down.. I didn't have enough strength.

POV | Lia
I immediately got out my phone, I called Yeji, she didn't pick up. I left a voicemail, "Yeji! Help! Ryujin is saying she's gonna die and she can't get up! She's extremely pale and keeps falling! Yeji she needs you!" I hung up, looking at Ryujin. She didn't look good. I called Yuna, "Yuna.. you need to get here... right now." She said, "Where are you?" Then I saw Yuna standing right at the end of the hallway. I hung up, she ran over. Ryujin was coughing. "Ryujin?! Oh my god.. what's wrong with her?!" I looked at her, "I think.. I think we're gonna lose her.. a-again.." Ryujin looked up at me, "I-I need Yeji.." Yuna looked so confused but kept her mouth shut. I seriously didn't know what to do.. I rubbed her back, "We could be your true love..." Ryujin looked around, "No." I bit my lip. I had to do something.. I couldn't bare to lose her again.. I picked her up, Yuna helped me. I looked at Yuna. She nodded. "We need to get her to Yeji.." Ryujin could barely keep her eyes open. We took her to the car, putting her in the backseat. Yuna sat with her in the back, "Jeonju." I nodded, starting to drive off. "Jeonju.." I mumbled.

POV | Yeji
I left Ryujin because things just weren't getting better. She was just too toxic.. and I didn't want to be apart of that. I read every text she sent me. I didn't respond.. I just felt bad.. but then again... I was sorta happy without her. But until this very moment.. I realized that Ryujin needs me. A voicemail from Lia. I listened to it, "Yeji! Help! Ryujin is saying she's gonna die and she can't get up!" Then I heard a background noise, "Lia.. g-get her here.. n-now.." Oh my god.. I don't think I've ever heard such a weak voice from her. "She's extremely pale and keeps falling!" I could hear the pain in Lia's voice. "Yeji she needs you!" I felt sick.. this didn't feel like a lie. This felt real. Holy shit. I called her back.. no answer. I felt my breathing get heavy. This was all my fault.. I shouldn't have left her... because she can't control.. fuck I forgot about this. I called Ryujin.. no answer. I was doomed. I called Yuna, Chaeryoung, Jaemin, everyone.. no answer. I got out of the bed. Jihyo was gone. I'm so fucking stupid. I went outside, the air felt sickening. I don't believe in signs.. or god... or anything but this one time.. I did. "Hello Yeji.. I'm sure you know who I am. Jonghyun. Ryujin's brother. So.. Yeji.. Ryujin is very a delicate person.. as you know.. and she is in a very bad state. Remember when she had that heart attack?" I nodded. "Well.. you actually broke her heart... because she hurt you.. you struck back.. and it broke her. You were right. You did break my sister. Anyways.. while all of this was happening.. she was fighting for her life.. with me. We together watched and saw everything. She was absolutely in pain. I still remember seeing that..." He pulled up a screen.. showing Ryujin watching me. "By the way.. this is true.. You're not seeing things. Anyways.. since you broke her.. God and I gave her an ultimatum.. it was.. if you hurt Yeji again.. you're dead. Which she never did.. it was your choice to part with her.. correct?" I nodded. "But.. she also needed to find true love.. I'm sure this answers why she would ask what is love? And why she would listen to the song all the time. Because.. she needed to know.. to survive. So now.. she has a day left to live.. well unless she finds true love. But the only person who can do it.. is you. Yes, you've broken her heart but you've also been able to light up her heart and make her care. Right now.. she doesn't have that light.. and since you've broken her heart before.. it needs that light to survive.. so if she doesn't have that light.. she's gonna.. die." I gasped, "Well where is she?" I asked. "Well.. she's on her way.. but.. I'm not supposed to share this but I will.. she's not gonna make it to you. Ryujin is gonna get a huge car accident.. so you'll have to get to her.. and if you don't make it in time.. the time won't stop.. it will go faster. Minute by minute she will be dying." He showed a video of Ryujin laying in Yuna's lap, Yuna kept checking her pulse. "Lia hurry up.." I gasped, "No! Don't hurry up!" Jonghyun put the screen down, "Go.." Then everything disappeared. Holy fuck.. She was gonna die if she didn't get that light. I ran to my car, getting in. I went about 80 miles per hour but I needed to get to her. I know exactly where they were. Cheonan-Nonsan Expressway. I don't think I've ever been this worried before. All of my feelings for Ryujin started to come back. Anytime we said we loved each other came back. Like when I nuzzled my head into her neck in that hospital bed, "I-I.. l-love you.." She said.. then I said , "I love you too.." Then when I first told her I loved her, "R-Ryujin I think it's just your imagination but he's right.. I really do love you.." I felt sick to my stomach again. And when we first kissed. I was so shocked. "Well that's what lovers do.." She said. I felt tears form in my eyes. And when we first cuddled with each other.. I missed that. It was before everything turned toxic and overwhelming. "You have the most beautiful voice.." I remember when she told me that after I got out of the shower. "Thanks.. and Thanks for the clothes.." Then when I said, "It's okay.. let's stop apologizing to each other.. it's nonsense.." I wish she would've listened that. Maybe things would've turned out different. Maybe.. Another moment popped up.. I took her out to get pizza. "Thank you.." She said.. and then I kissed her cheek, "Anything for my love.." All those moments were telling me that Ryujin really does need me.. and maybe I need her. The only reason I left is because of how our relationship was failing.. but the whole time Ryujin was just trying to get me to love her more so she could have that true love so she wouldn't die.. and I didn't see that. Ryujin was trying to be nicer to me and give me pleasure so that way I would give her love.. the love she needed to survive. This was all starting to make sense. And when that one time she tried yelling at me but replaced it with why do you always joke around? She did that so she wouldn't hurt me.. so that way she could live. Ryujin wanted to stay alive for me but also needed me to help her stay alive for me. I sighed, some tears fell as I thought about it. I had to get to her.. I needed to. I pulled up an app to track down Ryujin. Exactly where I thought. Cheohan-Nonsan Expressway. "I'm coming for you babe.." I mumbled. I wish I had never left her.. and especially how I did it. "Ryujin.. I just don't.. love you.." I remember saying while getting ready to leave. She was broken, Ryujin was holding onto my leg, "No! That's not true! You love me! You love me! You love me!" She sobbed. I now know why she kept telling herself that. She needed true love. I tried calling her phone one last time. Ryujin picked up, "Y-Yeji.." She sounded so weak. "Baby! I'm on my way! Honey! Listen to me! Sit up and put your seatbelt on!" I yelled. "Why?" She asked. "Just do it baby! Please!" Then I heard a loud crash.. god that was the car accident. "Ryujin!" I yelled loud. Nothing. Car alarms were going off. But nothing. No words.. no anything. I sped up, "RYUJIN!" Then.. it hung up. I was screamed, "NO!" My girl.. she was dying.. just like Jonghyun said.. once she's in the car accident, she'll die faster. I was speeding at this point, I didn't care if I got caught.