Ryeji - What is love?

Chapter 50 - Needy

POV | Yeji
"Too gay to function..." I mumbled. "Too gay to function.. where have I heard that before?" I thought hard. I had heard that before. Fuck. It hit. My crush from years ago. I remember the girl I helped because she was a strip club probably being raped-oh my god.. that girl was Ryujin. I was shocked, "Ryujin?! She was the stripper! She was the one who kissed my cheek! She was the one who wrote me that letter! R! R! Ryujin! This makes sense.." I yelled at myself for not knowing it before. I jumped on the bed, "S-so this is also means that she was raped and a stripper.. oh my god.." It took me about 5 minutes to calm down. I still couldn't believe it. The girl I had chased for, for 4 years was already my girlfriend and I didn't know it. I'm such an idiot. But how could she not tell me? Jesus. It had been about 3 hours. And she came back. Ryujin set down her bag and looked at me. I jumped on her waist, holding her tight. "It's you.. it's you.." Ryujin rubbed my back, "I can't believe it took you this long to realize.." I pulled away, observing her face, "W-when you left.. I was scared.. I went back everyday to find you but you were gone.." Ryujin looked down, "W-well they moved me to Seoul.. and I looked for you too.. but you were never home.. I'm not sure if you know or not.. but I left another note on your dresser.." I gasped, thinking back then. I remember saying a note on the dresser. I didn't know who that was from. "I have a crush on you." I thought it was just a guy who snuck into my house but it was her. "R-Ryu.. you had a crush on me?" Ryujin kept rubbing me. "Yeah.. and you did too. I remember your gay panic.. It's when I kissed you on the cheek.." I shivered just thinking about it. I pointed to exact spot, "Right here.." Ryujin then kissed me there. It felt just like when she did 4 years ago. I squealed and held her tight, "I found you.. I found you.." She took me to the bed. "I found you too.." Ryujin said and then sat in front of me. "S-so that also means that you were.. uhm in that situation.." I said. "Yep.. but the truth can never come out to the public.. I had that dream last night.. a-and it came out so I made sure that it will never come out." I held her hands, "What did you do?" Ryujin looked at me, "I gave up something." I blinked fast, "What?" She sighed, "Yeji I'm sorry.. I gave up the money that we were saving for our wedding.." I held her close to me, "Ryujin don't worry about that.. we don't need a whole wedding and especially if we're gonna become K-pop idols.. we mind as well keep it a secret.." Ryujin smiled, hovering over me. I stroked her cheek, "Finally.." I mumbled. She wrapped her arms around me, "You want me to show you my tricks?" I bit my lip, "Sure.." Ryujin got up and put a whole show on for me. I couldn't take it, I had to get up, and kiss her. Ryujin chuckled, "You try.." I blushed, "I-I can't.." Ryujin looked at me, "I saw you at prom.." I got really red and kept my head down. "Too gay to function.." She said that line again. I chuckled, turning on music. "F-fine.." I started to grind on her like we did at prom. "Sexy señorita.." Ryujin bit her lip. I laid my head on her shoulder, "I love you.." Ryujin picked me up, holding my legs around her waist. "I love you too.." She nuzzled her head against mine. That night, we had sex and cuddled with each other. I kinda understood what she meant about leaving JYP. But I couldn't do that. I just couldn't. So we made a promise with each other. "No matter how hard it gets.. we have to be there for each other.." Ryujin said. I held her hand, "I promise.." She kissed my neck, "Goodnight kitten.." I put her hands on my waist, holding them tighter, "Goodnight mommy." I looked back at her, and kissed her. Then she put the blanket over us and cuddled me.

| Time Lapse | The next morning

POV | Ryujin
"Ryujin! Yeji!" I huffed, pulling Yeji close to me. "Guys! Get up!" Yeji whined and laid her head on my chest. "Go away.." I said in a sleepy tone. Smack. "Ow! Don't smack me!" I yelled and covered Yeji's ears. I just wanted to sleep with her. "Get your asses up!" Now I knew who it was. I sighed, "Kitten we gotta get up.." She wrapped her arms around my neck, and opened her eyes, "Leave us alone.." Yeji said. "You guys need to get up! We have to go to JYP!" Lia yelled. "W-wait are you guys naked?!" I hid her body and pulled her close. "You guys had sex last night didn't you?! We have to go to JYP, so get up now!" Lia was angry. "Fine.." Lia walked out. I huffed, picking her up. Yeji was so tired. I could just tell. "Want me to dress you?" She nodded. I put clothes on her, and myself. It had been about 30 minutes and we were now ready. I carried her like my baby, and froze when I saw paparazzi outside the window. "Shit.." I put her down, "We gotta keep a low profile.." She agreed, looking at Yuna and Lia. "That means you two, too." Lia huffed, putting down Yuna. "Alright.. here we go.." I fixed my hair, and interlocked arms with Yeji. We walked out together. Click. Click. Click. "Shin Ryujin, when is ITZY gonna debut?" I hesitated. This never happened in the dream I had. Well it wasn't a dream.. it did happen.. but my brother saved me. "Uh.. uh sometime in February.." Yeji got a question. "Which member do you share a dorm with?" I looked at her. "Ryujin." She said. I bit my lip, then bodyguards showed up, "Alright! That's enough questions, we have to leave." I waved to the cameras and sat down next to Yeji in the car. We held hands. "That was scary.." Yeji mumbled. I caressed her hand, "It'll get better baby.." She sighed, laying her head on my shoulder. Chaeryeong huffed, "Why do you guys always flirt?" The drivers divider was up so I said it. "We're girlfriends, so of course we're gonna flirt.." Chaeryeong crossed her arms, "Rosé's my girlfriend and we don't flirt like that." I looked at her, "Then maybe she's a bad girlfriend." Yeji hit my arm. "Quit, that was rude." I rolled my eyes, and crossed my legs. "That was rude." Chaeryeong said and looked out the window. "Would you guys stop already? Just quit the fighting.." Lia said. "She started it!" Yuna looked at me, "Ryujin. You were the one who was rude." I huffed, "Wha-f-fine.." I decided not to say whatever.. I needed to stay out of the fighting. "What are we doing today?" I asked. Yeji looked at her phone, "We're going to meet with JYP to discuss the dating ban.." I sighed, "Great.." Chaeryeong was listening to music that was so fucking loud. Does she need hearing aids? I moved closer to Yeji which earned me a dirty look from her. Turn the fucking volume down and maybe I'd be able to sit next to you. I'm glad I wasn't saying this out loud. I would've gotten in big trouble if I did. I hated that Yeji was the leader. It made her look like the top. I shook my head at the thought. "What's wrong?" Yeji asked. "N-nothing.." I got a call. JYP. Great. I answered it, "Hello, this is Ryujin." I acted formal. "Hello Ryujin, this is JYP. Are you guys on your way?" I nodded, "Yes sir. We'll be there in like 10 minutes." He then said, "Alright." He hung up. I took a deep breath, staring ahead. I zoned out, thinking about how this conversation would go. It terrified me. "Ryujin! Hello?!" I flinched and looked at Yeji. "S-sorry.." Yeji looked at them all, "Is it just me or is she acting weird?" I bit my lip, "I'm fine... Yeji." I sat back and felt the car stop. Here we go. The doors opened. I dropped hands with her and held onto to the bodyguard who helped me out. I walked with Yuna, going into JYP. "Are you okay sis?" She whispered to me. "I-I'm fine.." I gulped, walking on with them. Cameras flashed and took photos of us. The clicking noises represented my anxiety. I could feel my breathing pick up. We got into JYP, going up to his room. I felt more anxiety. I serious thought I could pass out. Next thing you know, I was on the floor. "R-Ryujin!" Yeji yelled, and got down by my side. Everyone else rushed over to me. Why was this happening? I never get panic attacks anymore. "Is she okay?!" An employee helped me up. "I-I need to use the restroom.." I started to freak out, Yeji took my hand, taking me to the restroom. I fell in her arms, she caught me, holding my hands, "R-Ryujin?!" I was breathing heavily, "I can't do this.." She held me, "Ryujin.. it's gonna be okay.." I kissed her, "I-I need you to calm me down.." Yeji looked at bathroom door. "But Ryujin we can't-" I started to make out with her, taking her into a stall. I spoke during the kiss, "Please kitten.." She huffed, getting on her knees. I watched her, and ran my fingers through her hair. Yeji unzipped my pants, putting her mouth on me. I stepped closer to her, moving her hands to my waist. She closed her eyes and really focused on trying to calm me down. I started to feel a lot better. Then the door opened. I froze, getting shivers that made me cum. Yeji quickly swallowed, and zipped my pants up. I helped her up, and bit my lip. "Ryujin? Yeji?" Someone asked. Yeji tugged on my arm, "Ryujin!" She whisper shouted. I huffed, "I needed help.." I whispered. I fixed my pants and gulped. I opened the stall door to see Lia. She widened her eyes, "What the hell?! You two were having sex?! Are you crazy?!" Lia whisper shouted. Yeji wiped off her mouth, "It was her idea!" She pointed to me. I grumbled, "I was having a panic attack, okay?! I needed something to calm me down!" Lia pulled us out of the stall, "We need to go in there and act like none of this even happened, you hear me?!" I nodded, and looked at the door. "Is everything alright in there, ladies?" JYP PD asked. I stared at Yeji. "Uh uhm yeah. We're just having a talk.." Yeji said. "Alright.. I hope Ryujin's okay.." We stayed quiet for a second and then started to talk again. "You guys are gonna get caught at some point, you need to be careful.." Lia said. I sighed, walking into his office with the two of them. Yuna and Chaeryeong stared at us. I bit my lip, sitting next to Chaeryeong. "Well hello.. I've heard that Ryujin has some health issues.. and I need to know if you're okay.." I looked at him, "Y-yeah.. it's just uh.. symptoms of my disease.." Chaeryeong held my hand which made me feel weird. After a second, I took my hand away, and listened to him. "Alright. So we have a dating ban of 3 years on this group, does everybody understand?" We all nodded or hummed. "So this means that you're not aloud to contact people with the opposite sex." Yeji looked at him, "B-but what about my brother?" Why would she ever want to contact Hyunjin in the first place. "Hyunjin.. hm.. I heard about what happened.." I felt nervous. "When Hyunjin tried pushing you two off the railing of your dorm balcony.. am I correct?" He pointed at me and Yeji. Yeji and I stared at each other. "Yeah.. he did.." I mumbled. "So why would you want to contact Hyunjin?" JYP PD asked. "Well.. uh.. he's still my brother.. and I may want to check if he's alright or something.." He looked at his computer, "Fine.. I guess brothers and dads should be aloud." I crossed my legs. "So is there anything I need to know about?" Yes. Five things. I'm dating. Yeji's dating. Lia's dating. Yuna's dating. Chaeryeong's dating. Yeji cleared her throat, "A-are friends aloud? Because I'm friends with SM's Jaemin." JYP PD stared at Yeji, "Just friends?" Yeji nodded, "He met me on the bus to go to Jeonju." JYP PD said, "You may not contact him until I have a conversation with Mr.Sooman." Yeji nodded and sat back in the chair. "So that is it for today.. we are working on a debut song for you guys and we'll have you record it in the studio in about a week. For now, you have the week off. But this next couple weeks are gonna be super busy so be ready. You are dismissed." I gulped, standing up, and going to Yeji. We exchanged looks and walked out beside each other.