Happiness [GakuenBabysitters]

Chapter 5 Falling apart

Ryuu-kun tommorow after school can we talk?

Tw: Blood and Cutting

The message left me staring at my phone for 10 minutes. I was confused, scared really scared. What would she want to talk about??
Thoughts were running through my head all night and i barely got any sleep that but i pulled through. Tommorow was the talk and i got to school early because i felt like it Kotarou was up early as well seems like he and i had the same plan

Kotarou woke up with his usual sleepy look and rubbed his eyes

"Ni-chaa"
"Good morning Kotarou why are you up early?"
"Kota and Ni-Chaa go to school now?"

Kotarou seems to know that something was going on and he wanted to go to school early for me. I was touched by how selfless he was and how much he cared for me. I mean he was only four years old, very caring, observant, and kind hearted

I am a lucky brother

I gave kotarou a smile before i told him to wait for me while i prepared myself
I took a shower to get my mind of the talk for a while but i can't seem to do so
I was anxious but yet curious to know what she wanted to say.

I took a little longer in the shower before i got out and helped kotarou get ready.

Saikawa surprisingly already got our bentos out we were way earlier than before yet he is still ready. Saikawa really is a man of mystery yet i still can't seem to piece what figure he is to me a father or a big brother that i never had.

"Ryuuichi-sama Kotarou-Sama your bentos, enjoy."
"But.. We are almost 1 hour ealier than usual, how did you.."
"I know what i should that is my job after all don't be suprised" Saikawa said trailing me of
"You should be on your way now if you want to still get to the academy early. here is some bread for you to eat on your way, enjoy"
"Oh thankyou saikawa-san" i smiled at him while waving him of
Saikawa gave a small wave at us

I and kotarou walked to school in silence because i kept thinking about the talk. I don't know if im prepared..
Kotarou seemed to notice i was lost in my thoughts and called out my name

"Nii-chan?"
"Nii-chan??"
He decided to make a fuss while i was carrying him to snap me out

"Uh yes Kotarou?"
"Nii-chan worry?
I was shocked but i managed hide it, i gave him a warm smile and hugged him
"No, Nii-Chan isn't worried thankyou for asking Kotarou"

'You don't need to be so observant kotarou i will protect you, as a child you had already went through enough'

I thought to myself

I've never felt this anxious since the last time i left kotarou alone for almost a day. I guess i wasn't good at hiding how anxious i was. Sometime at break i was sitting alone in my desk in the class while i was finishing a science paper the teacher gave us, i had already talked to Usaida and Obaa-san for this and they agreed. I felt a tap on my shoulders

'Kamitani'. I thought while i looked back only to see one of my classmates

"Kashima?"
"Yes, do you need something?"
"No, you just looked so anxious i thought maybe i could help with whatever you need, you helped me out alot y'know"

"No, its nothing im just worried about this report's results" i said while giving an awkward chuckle

"Oh is that so? Well if you say so"
He says while walking away and waving

I waved back but then i saw him Kamitani was at the door and was about to leave, my eyes followed him until i lost sight at him.

I froze there looking at the classroom door i froze for about 10 seconds before i snapped out of it and got back to my paper. After break time is over its back to learning, but i can't seem to focus on anything really today i can't stop thinking about the talk.