Forever & Always

Hope

(If you want to play the song Better Together  by Jack Johnson near the end of the chapter) 

*Current Day*

"I have so many questions!" Matt said like a child looking at Lena.

Lena scoffed. "You get two questions."

"Okay, what's a fixer, and what happened with you and Hotch next?" Leasen counted to two on his fingers.

Lena sighed, getting tired. "A fixer is someone who makes arrangements for other people. When I was captured as a child I would handle my captures' deals and made sure everything went according to plan. If something went wrong I was in charge of fixing it, no matter the cost. Later on, in my life, I mostly did this with more high-profile clients and legally. Helping with tabloids and scandals, it was like a side job."

Matt rubbed his chin, "Interesting... and for you and Hotch?"

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*Time Travel*

-knock, knock-

"Hey Jethro, thank you for agreeing to this." I had gone back to D.C just a few days ago. I needed to take time for myself and think about everything. The past week has been quite distressing and caused me to think about my future.

"Of course, Lena. I'm always here, no matter what. So, talk to me." He gave me a half-smile.

I took a deep breath, "T-This is my letter of resignation..."

"What? Why would you quit?" His voice went from calm to irritated.

I scoffed, "Jethro, my Son was just kidnapped. I need to reevaluate my life, I need to step out of the field for a while."

"Why not just take a leave of absences then?" He puts his hands on his hips.

"I got a job offer, one that wouldn't put any of my loved ones in harm's way. This wasn't an easy decision to make, Jethro." I looked down at the ground feeling the tension rise.

"You know, Le... it seems like it's really easy for you to run. You run away when things get complicated or too uncomfortable. Why don't you just face the music?" He raised his voice.

I crossed my arms, "Excuse you? Jethro, you want me to face the music? Fine, here are some notes; Jack could have died, you and I barely communicate anymore, and I'm tired. I'm tired of the battle that is going on in my head with the decisions I made."

He quirked up his eyebrow, "And what decisions are those? Do you mean me?"

I gritted my teeth and raised my voice, "It's not all about you! Sure, sometimes I think my life would've been easier if I-I never met Aaron. Sometimes I wish I never fell in love with him. I wish I never kissed him, I wish I could marry you."

"So, why don't you?" He copied my pose.

I put my hand on my head, looking up at him with sorry eyes. "B-Because he's my everything. Whether I like it or not, he has all of me. For once, I would like to have the life I want. A life with Aaron Hotchner. "

Aaron's POV

Today was the day I was going to Lena's house and to ask her to give us a second chance. I had her favorite flowers in my hand. I noticed a second car was in her driveway, thinking she must have company. I hoped she could spare a moment to speak with me. I hoped she would be willing to try again... the other night when we talked it seemed like we had a fighting chance.

As I walked up to the door, I was about to knock when I heard raised voices. Then I heard something that changed everything.

"It's not all about you! Sure, sometimes I think my life would've been easier if I-I never met Aaron. Sometimes I wish I never fell in love with him. I wish I never kissed him, I wish I could marry you."