The Beautiful Tragic Us (Eren x Mikasa)

Chapter 30: After Party

Mikasa's POV

"It's okay guys! What's important is we did our best. I'm still so proud to all of you. You did well." Our coach clapped her hands as our group turned into a mini circle for a hug.

So this is what it feels to lose.

I know it's okay but I still feel as if I didn't tried enough. Like I failed as the cheer captain.

"Cheer up Mikasa! You really did your all on that performance. I know!" Sasha says to me as she came in hugging me.

I smiled at her and to everyone who looked at my direction.

I'm sorry everyone.

I apologetically looked at them but they showered me with cheerful words saying it's okay in various ways. I feel horrible. I would have seen their brightest smiles today if we didn't get the 1st runner up.

"Excuse me for a while. I have to drink water." I said and I went out looking for an empty place while the background is a noise of crowd cheers.

I feel so horrible. Like I failed as a person.

All efforts wasted because we weren't able to get the champion.

I felt my visions blurry. Nothing is going right in my life right now. I hugged my knees and cried silently.

"Ackerman? Alone again?" Mr. Levi must have noticed that I am crying because he went silent.

I got embarrassed and I immediately wiped my tears and bowed in front of him.

"I'm really sorry Mr. Ackerman. That is so embarrassing." I said and I looked at him smiling at me.

"You know my mother Kuchel Ackerman used to cry a lot at home before when I was younger and I really don't understand why it happened but now, I think I already have an idea." He smiled as he took a seat and motioned me to sit beside him.

"Who is the guy?" He asks and I blushed.

What's with the sudden interest Mr. Levi? This is embarrassing.

"Why would I tell you?" I said.

Well shit. I'm dead.

I flashed a weird face in front of him as he laughed at my remark.

Is he okay? I thought he is going to get angry.

Mr. Levi suddenly patted my head and I froze.

"You really remind me of my mom. Ackermans sure are hard headed ones. They would always keep secrets on their own especially feelings until someone reciprocates it equally. Our clan is known to have preserved pride for years." He says smiling and I was stunned.

I didn't know Mr. Levi would react like this. I was actually preparing for a lecture from him but it wasn't what I expected.

"Mr. Levi..I'm sure your mom must be very beautiful and a good person." I said as I found myself smiling.

"She is. I miss her everyday. This cloth I always wear is from the fabric she usually wears to remind me that she is always with me." He says and I got amazed.

"I wish I have something that reminds me with my mom too Mr. Levi." I said saying sadly.

"You don't have to hide getting hurt. You can just let it out." He says suddenly making me look at him.

"If there's one thing the Ackermans must learn is to drop their pride sometimes. We're not right always are we?" He says and I nodded in agreement.

"So go after that ugly boy Jaeger causing you pain. You never know if he has heavy reasons behind it." He says which made my mouth hang open.