The boy next door

Chapter 47

This chapter is very personal since I was in Y/N's shoes only half a year ago. The passages in italic are literally what has been said to me by my ex or what I said. The sentences who hit the hardest and I still have nightmares of are italicized and in bold.

The song that has accompanied my break-up was 'Wrecking Ball' by Miley Cyrus.

"Jimin, what's going on?"

He sighed at the other end of the line and I could picture how he closed his eyes in frustration pinching the bridge of his nose.

"You've been calling less and... you're so cold towards me lately", I explained why I was asking such a question.

"Y/N, I've been meaning to tell you this but I didn't know how", he began, "I met this girl..."

My heart clenched and I took a deep breath. These words could mean so much, the end of our relationship among other things.

A part of me wanted to scream at him and tell him to stop talking no matter he was going to say next.

But I was kind of in a shock-included paralysis. I couldn't move or talk. I just sat there and listened with horror in my eyes.

"We've been spending a lot of time together and had a lot of fun", he told me, "Y/N, she already confessed that she likes me."

Silence. I let his words sink in but they triggered no outward reaction. I only felt the anger and sorrow build up inside of me.

"Are you not going to say something to this?", he asked in a stern voice.

"What am I supposed to say, Jimin?", I asked in response, "all I can say is that I don't like where this is going and that you spent so much time with her even though you are with me. What do you expect from me?"

"Nothing. I just wanted a reaction from you because the thing is...", he paused for a second seeming to think about his next words.

"No, don't say it", I whispered on the verge of crying because I knew exactly what was coming.

"Y/N, I'm not sure that us is still what I want or need right now", he said quietly but almost no emotion in his voice, "it has been very difficult lately because all the will to stay in contact came from me. You never call."

"I can't believe this right now!", I said upset, "you were the one that convinced me we could work this out! You were the one who promised me he'd wait for me!"

"I know, but people change. Opinions change", he said.

"You know you're breaking my heart with this", I said now sobbing.

"I know", he replied, "but the thing is, I can't do this anymore. Y/N, I simply fell in love with that girl."

Pain.

Pain was the only word I knew and the only emotion I felt in that moment.

It rushed through my veins like a deadly poison slowly eating me up from the inside leading to a slow, painful death.

"Did-did you cheat on me?", I asked shaking from all the crying.

A short silence followed as if he was contemplating on whether to tell me the truth or not.

"Only after I was sure about this whole thing", he admitted.

Now he was trampling on my already ripped heart. I had given it to him, trusted him with it hoping he'd hold it in his hands and not let it fall down, ever.