Finding Neverland // Peter Pan X Reader (editing)

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Reader's P.O.V

A shaky gasp left my chapped lips as his hand crashed my windpipes, slowly increasing the pressure, making my blood rush to my head. His bloodred eyes shown down at mine, fury and disgust twirling in grey lines. 

''You little-!'' Sharp pain flew through my body as my back crashed on the bed. My lungs got a second of oxygen but it was soon taken away by his hand squeezing my throat. ''You ungrateful little bitch!''  

Tears of panic glossed over my eyes, even though I tried to hold them back stubbornly. He won't see me cry! He's not worth it.

''I cared for you! I did everything for you! I even tried to find another way for me to live so you wouldn't die for me! I did it for you! For you, you...you!'' My mind fogged up from the lack of air, blood slowing down from circulating... One more minute and I'll be done for...

"I love you! you except it or not, I do. whatever you said, you feel can't be clearer. I do intend to take your heart. That was my plan from the very start even before the situation with your brother. I never needed him. He can't give me the power to control the strongest magical waves ever created. Your love for me is dangerous, honey. too dangerous. I need your heart, I need you."

His words were echoing somewhere at the back of my head, somewhere far, not really reaching to me... What was he saying? 

He's not talking?... Why can't I hear him?

Am I... Am I dying? 

What.. Where? Where is he? 

I can't see him.. He was here.. He was shouting.. 

His eyes... 

Bloodred eyes...

Hateful, spiteful eyes...

Red...

Red...

Green...

Black...

Is he shouting again? 

My name? 

Is he shouting my name? 

Why? I'm right here...

I just have to open my eyes...

I...

''(Y/N)!'' It felt like a giant bolt of sparks pierced my heart as I shot up on my bed, coughing violently, throat hurting as if I just swallowed a mouthful of sand. 

His hand reached for me again, making me flinch away immediately. He sighed loudly as I kept on coughing and in just a second everything was fine. 

He retreated his hand after healing me, clenching his hair tightly while kicking my chair to the corner of the tent. 

''I almost killed you...'' He turned around sharply, his eyes changing colour, his magic shooting out from his fingers creating sparks of light. ''Fuck! I almost killed you!''  In a blink of an eye, he whooshed up to me, trapping me beneath him.

''No!'' I trashed around, not wanting to be as close as we were right now. He hadn't budged at all, simply piercing me on the bed with his glare. ''Let go! Let go!'' 

''Enough!'' He grabbed my hand, holding them over my head. ''Stop...please stop...'' 

I closed my eyes, trying to send back the tears that were threatening to fall any second now. 

''I do very bad things...and I do them very well. Some I enjoy committing, some make me want to rip my own heart out and crush it.  I was never meant to be your hero... but I have never loved anyone or anything as much as I love you lass.''

''Words are just words, nothing, unless you keep them... I still repeat the things you said to me in my head. They hurt me the same... They hate me the same way... They disgust me the same way they did the first time I heard you... How can you say that you love me when all you've ever done is hurt me?''

Silent curse echoed in my head at how much broken I sounded, how vulnerable and weak, trapped beneath the darkness himself.

His eyes were dark... His soul of the night sky, the darkest ebony with no specks of light... Gone... How could I fall for a monster like him?

''I see...'' He inhaled sharply before looking down at me with a face I was too familiar with. Emotionless.  ''You don't belong here.'' 

My eyes widened as he whooshed us out of the tent landing on the sandy shore, the breeze gently kissing my skin. 

He stood before me, facing away, back stiff. I didn't dare to utter a word or make a move not knowing just how much damage he could cause just about now. 

''Look at the moon...'' I did. Bright, grey melancholy... alone in the night sky, no stars to keep him company... 

''Remember when I told you, the moon is beautiful because we have never touched it, we haven't ruined it by our filthy sinned hands?'' I glanced back at his back, only to find his dark eyes staring through me.

''Yes...''

''You were my moon... until I ruined you,'' He took my hand gently not looking away from my eyes that held so many emotions... ones I couldn't hide.

''I tried... I really did... but a monster like me can never love someone like you in ways that you should be adored in... I can't force you to suffer just because of my selfish reasons. I can't change the past, but I can forbid anyone from hurting my one true treasure ever again.'' 

''Peter...no...'' He smiled, small heavy smile as he pulled me closer to his heart, tugging me close as we lifted from the shore. 

''Shh, just hold on to me, alright?'' I buried my face into his neck, crying silently as I came to realize what he planned to do, but I couldn't object... I wanted this since the second I arrived... I've always wanted to go home...

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Third P.O.V

He flew her over to another reality... to another life waiting for her... A life full of endless opportunities... A life without magic... A life without Peter Pan.

She refused to let go of him even when they landed on the floor of her childhood room. She refused to believe he could just vanish from her life and never come back again. A life without Peter Pan? 

He caressed her tear-stained face gently with his rough hand... Not letting himself look into her beautiful eyes... He knew if he did, he would just snatch her away and take her back to his island, showing just how much he needed her...loved her... 

With a long sigh, he stepped back to the window, slowly turning his back around to the only thing that kept him sane. 

''Peter...'' Gentle whisper glued him on the spot... He couldn't... He wouldn't... ''Stay...'' She whispered as he vanished from her point of view.