Finding Neverland // Peter Pan X Reader (editing)

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Reader's P.O.V

I froze at her words, my hand burning on her shoulder, her eyes were peering up at me with hope and fear flicking here and there.

She's pregnant? On Neverland? We don't even have our cycle here.

"Oh my, Wendy..." She smiled sadly at my words and blinked rapidly, trying to hide the watering eyes from me.

"No, it would be more correct if I said that I was pregnant..." She tried to keep her voice stiff but I could hear the cries fighting to escape her lips.

"Come here, " She collapsed into my arms, sobbing uncontrollably. I stroked her blonde hair, shooing her from time to time, but nothing ceased the wails.

After what happened that day with Pan, I couldn't go back to the camp. I couldn't face any of them, it was too painful, too humiliating to let them see what he made of me.

I spent hours wobbling through the forest to find one place I knew could heal everything. A place I hoped would heal me from him.

Alexa welcomed me with teary eyes, healed what was visible but couldn't even stitch up a millimeter of the wound stashed on my heart.

Nightmares never stopped. Only got worse. Nothing could wake me up from my terrors except for the ancient mantra Alexa used to whisper in my ear.

"Calming waters, sprinkling lights,
Sun and Moon are united tonight...
Hush my love and feel the warmth,
Of the world around us all...
Hush my love and hear the sound
Singing birds and humming wind...
They are happy and free...
For us to feel the heat..."

Wendy calmed down slightly, but the silent tears kept wetting my tunic.

What have you done Pan?...

"It might make you feel better if we talk about it?" I felt her head nodding as we sat down near the firepit and cuddled up. She needs me... I can't think of Pan doing this exact thing with me... In the cave... When I was frightened...

Shut up!

"It was not Pan's."

Huh?

"What?"

"The baby, he never touched me after y-you saw us..." She haltered a bit when she mentioned that horrible day, but I encouraged her to go on by tracing the lines on her back.

"I was not that long... A month old, probably... H-he... Didn't react the way I thought he would... He was delighted... Told me we would tell you all at the bonfire, but he got drunk in that evening, so I had to get him back to bed. After I tucked the kids in, I was walking back to my tent when Pan saw me and told me he wanted to speak with me..." She stopped for a while but I didn't push her. Although I wonder what he wanted to speak about.

"When you left to bed, he was down and I thought he needed me for...for...you know... But no, he apologized. He apologized for everything he's done to me, everything he let others do to mr and asked for forgiveness. I was so shocked... I didn't know what to say, I remember nodding my head and his proud smile."

"Pan apologized?" He wouldn't.

"He did."

What happened to him?

"I was not deep into the woods, but I was far enough that no one could see him snatching me away deeper in the forest..." Oh, you poor thing.

"I-I tried to fight him off...but I couldn't... He was so...so rough and horrible to me...you...you saw...I was bleeding...I was b-bleeding..." Her cries pierced my heart repeatedly but I could do nothing more than to hold her and soothe her trembling body.

"Who was it? Tell me who was the father?"

She tried to calm down by taking deep breaths, eventually stopping the tears that reddened her whole face and eyes. Poor girl...

"Felix, he was the father... But he didn't rape me (Y/N)... It was L-Logan..." I wiped away her fallen tears and embraced her again.

Felix? Since when?

And Logan? Sweet Logan?

How could he? How could anyone?

"Shhh, calm down love, I'll take care of it..." She nodded and snuggled up on me, holding me for dear life. I will take care of you, love.

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"How are you, my boy?" I kissed his forehead, checking for the temperature, just a tad bit warm. The fever's gone down.

"I feel better, mommy." He smiled his crooked smile as he tried to fight off the drowsiness.

"It's okay, sleep in baby..." I kissed his head again and walked out.

Wendy's resting as well, poor girl, what had that bastard done to her and the baby. I wouldn't imagine the feeling she's experiencing. I need to find Pan.

"Dami!" He looked up from chopping firewood and wiped off the sweat from his forehead. I'd say he looked hot if I wasn't foolishly in love with an idiot.

Wait.

In love?!

What! No! No! Nooo... How could I even think about that?!

Clear your head, you stupid girl.

"Pst, earth to (Y/N), " I blinked rapidly, shaking my head of previous thoughts. Fool, idiot.

"What's wrong with you? I mean, you look messier than usual," I hit his chest and cracked a smile.

"I'm looking for... Pan, have you seen him?" He pointed behind me and rolled his eyes.

"Look around first, you weirdo," I glared up playfully as he continued his work.

Pan was sitting on the log, near our place of the bonfire. He looked deep in thought with his hands resting on his lap and furrowed eyebrows. Why does he look so good?

Shut up!

"Pan! I mean uh leader," Shit, forgot his rules.

He glanced up at me and smirked slightly.

"Pan is fine, need anything?" Something is seriously wrong with him.

"Can we speak in private?" I mentioned to my tent and walked towards it with him following my footsteps.

"So?" He plopped down on my bed making me irritated as I almost pushed him off to the floor.

I took a sit in the chair and sighed deeply.

"It's about Wendy, " His face visibly fell as he sat up slowly not breaking the eye contact with me.

"Look, I'm not good at this thing... I apologized to her but I don't know how to make it better with you..." I flashed a small smile at him making him more confused.

"No, I know. I don't want to talk about us, it's about Wendy and what happened to her," I explained everything in detail, how Dami found her and how I thought it was his doing and that's why I attacked him that day.

He tensed, his eyes turning red with veins pulsating on his toned arms. I don't care what he does, as long as Logan is punished.

"I'll kill that bastard!" Oh.

"No! Not kill! Punish, I need you to punish him, just that, please, " He stayed silent, fuming in the middle of the room until he gave me a nod and disappeared through the puff.

"That went well."

I should find Logan first. He'll kill him. As much as he deserves that, Pan doesn't need more deed to blacken his heart.