Desire Of The Soul ...

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Karen ...
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Today i was gonna talk to J drew it was time i was afraid that he will be upset but he shouldn't .. least i'm telling him the truth i knew Kierra would be more supportive then J drew cause he is his daddy son . i can't blame him though

I grabbed my phone and facetimed J drew , he answered and sat his phone up it looked like he was in the studio working , he was a workaholic like his auntie Doe "Hey son how are you i miss you ." he smiled hard "Hey Mama i miss you more i'll be back in Detroit today in like a hour what's up with you though ?."

"Nothing much just sitting on the couch and stuff but i have to tell you something son .. it's important and you have ever right to be upset with me since i didn't tell you earlier." he looked at me with confusion "Go ahead mama you know you can tell me anything ." i took a deep breath before speaking "Well son .. theses last few months have been crazy so imma start with the beginning.. when you and Kierra were younger your Father use to be Abusive to me especially when i was pregnant with you , you almost didn't make it but thank you to the man above you did . i never said anything to y'all when y'all got grown because i didn't want to mess up your thinking of your father .. i know i was wrong for hiding it but i just wanted a happy family ." i continued

"a few months ago we were in the house and your dad took advantage of me and hurt me .. when i was younger i was raped by a boy i knew in high school .. it hurt me badly but i got through it i told your father when i met him and he said he completely understood .. but one morning a few months ago he takes advantage of me and still went beyond my limits , i was hurt J drew i still am but it's been so much theses past years i'm not happy with your father and i hope you can understand that ."

"Mama.. i can't believe this i can't believe he did this to you . your one of the most sweetest person i ever have known and such a beautiful woman .. he will pay for what he did to you i don't look at that man as my father anymore he hurt my first love my mama my everything and i don't appreciate that and i'm not mad at you for hiding it from me and Kierra i understand that's hard breaking that news to your children so i understand mama ." he said

"Thank you son .. i love you so much and i will forever have you and Kierra here by my side but that's not all J drew , i met this wonderful guy named Darius you may know him from the church and before you say anything please don't judge me i know i shouldn't be messing around with somebody connected with the church .. but he's an amazing guy and he makes me happy i wanted you to meet him i wanted to invite you your sister and your aunties over for dinner to get to know him more , i'm happy with him that's all that matters right ?."

"Of course mama your happiness always matter but ion know it's gone be hard meeting a new dude and letting him into your life i ain't gone be use to that but i mean i can try . but i ain't gone promise you everything gone be peaches and cream mama ." he replied " Okay J drew.. just let me know when your back in town please don't act a fool at this dinner i really want y'all to get along please for me ."

"Alright mama i'll text you when i'm back in town ." he says i knew he wasn't gonna act right just by the way he responded but i ignored "okay love you boy ." i say "love you too ." we hung up the phone and i headed to the bed room there was Darius laying down looking at the ceiling i lay on his chest staring at his tattoos "Hey ma how it go with J drew ?." he asks

"Well it was good he took it better then i thought he would it's so much more i have to tell him but right now i have a lot on my mind .. i'll explain everything else to him later but he did agree to having a dinner with us tonight so i'm gonna cook i'm gonna invite my sisters to if that's okay with you i just want all of us to get along ." i say