The Bad Lawyer (Mafia Series #1)

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Nag aaway nanaman sila. Reese is staying with us, in home. I don't know kung sino tatawagan ko ngayon. Kung sino makita ko sa contacts ko yun ang pinindot ko.

[Hello-]

"H-Hey.." I said. I know it's Gian. I recognized his voice.

[The fuck? Are you crying? Why?] He asked. Bakit nga ba ako umiiyak?

"Mom.. Dad.." I can't even fucking talk properly! Hinang hina na ako.

[Calm down, ok? I'm going there.] Then he ended the call. Finally, someone I can lean on.

I'm just staring at them they're shouting, they're mad, they're sad.

Hindi ko na maintindihan ang mga nangyayari. Gulong gulo na ako. Tinakpan ko ang tenga ko, umaasang hindi ko maririnig ang away nila. Dinalungan ako ni Gian at pinapakalma ako. I didn't even notice him coming, he is with Tita Eva.

"Ano ba! Dito lang muna sila hanggang sa manganak si Reese-"

"I don't fucking care! Ang kapal ng mukha mong dalhin kabit mo dito! Make her leave or else kami ang aalis ng anak mo!" Sigaw ni Mom.

"Buntis siya-"

"Oh ano gusto mong gawin ko? Patirahin siya dito? This is my house! My house, my rules! You should known that better!" Umiiyak na din si Mom. Napatingin siya kay Reese. "You fucking whore, may asawa na nga nilantari mo pa!"

"Don't make her stress, makakaapekto sa bata." Mahinhin na sabi ni Tita Eva. Napatingin naman si Mom sakanya. "Calm down, I know you're furious right now but set that aside first. I hate to say this but you should agree to that prick." Pretaining to Dad.

"Eva.." Umiyak lalo si Mom. Pinuntahan siya ni Tita at hinawakan sa balikat.

"Magpahinga ka na." Tumingin siya saamin at ngumiti. "Son, take her to her room."

"Yes, Mom." Sabi ni Gian. "Makakatayo kaba? Kaya mo?" Tanong niya at wala sa sariling napailing ako. Nanghihina ako sa mga nangyayari. Hindi ko na alam, mababaliw na ako. Naramdaman ko na lang ang pag angat ko.

Naramdaman ko ang malambot na kama sa likod ko. Nakatitig lang ako sa kung saan. Pakiramdam ko nawawala na ako sa katinuan. Binalutan ako ni Gian ng comforter.

"Hey.." he called me as he sat in my bed. "Pick up yourself, Alex."

"I-I think I'm going insane, Gian." Sabi ko. "Hindi ko matanggap ang mga nangyayari sa paligid ko. I'm failing this sem, My Dad cheated, he fucked another woman, they're getting divorce, I'm going to be a sister." Umiyak ako lalo. Tinakpan ko ang mukha ko.

I can't think properly these past few days. My wrist is full of cuts. I'm trying to overdose myself. There's a lot of what ifs in my head. There's a lot of question, even myself couldn't answer.

"I can't eat properly with them. Kahit sa hapag nag aaway sila. I'm so sick of it, Gian." Umupo ako sa kama at tinignan siya. His eyes are full of sympathy. His eyes are feel sorry for me. I avoided my gaze. "All i want to do is to sleep all day. I can't feel anything expect from sadness and emptiness and I-" I didn't finish talking when he just hugged me. He tapped my back.

"I know, I know, calm down..." he said.

"I don't want to do anything. I think a part of me is broken, I feel like something is pressing my heart. It's so frustrating and it makes me sad." Umiiyak na sabi ko. Humagulgol ako na parang bata. Nakapaglabas na ako ng sama ng loob, umiiyak na ako pero bakit hindi parin maagan ang loob ko? Bakit may kulang pa din? Bakit parang may mali?

"What should I do, Gian?"

I cried all night until I didn't notice I fell asleep. The next morning, as I open my eyes a little sunlight entered my room. Wala akong lakas para bumangon ngayon. Araw araw naman.