Omniscient
Atlanta, Ga
Armani laid down in her bed just staring at the ceiling in complete darkness. Tomorrow is the day her father passed and the closer it gets the sadder she gets.
She sat in her room as her speaker played throughout the house.
He havin' conversations in the dark, yeah, yeah
It's just me, myself, and my heart, uh
My heart said, "Under any circumstance or for any reason
Lay down your guard again and I'ma stop beatin'
Please, friend, I cannot take it no more"
Four in the mornin', while they sleepin', I'm wide awake
Thinkin' about the problems I faced, make my heart race
I done put my trust in so many, they all traded lanes
I don't know where I should start but it's time for a change
During the day, I'm Rod Wave, but I feel like Cobain
Do I wanna deal with the pain that tomorrow brings?
Might grab a gun, blow out his brain, he been feelin' strange
But then he think 'bout Reginae and think about Charmaine
So many smiles, so many hugs, but I still feel alone
Cut down the lights, cut off his phone, and get in his zone
Lost in his thoughts, he's in a vault, but his mind, it roams
And he'll give his heart to anyone who will call it home
And he's been like that for so long, since a small child
He'd be okay until he sober, then his thoughts pile
They be on social sites ridin', clownin' a nigga
Then he remember he's up two, 300, 000 on niggas
He havin' conversations in the dark, yeah, yeah
It's just me, myself, and my heart
My heart said, "Under any circumstance or for any reason
Lay down your guard again and I'ma stop beatin'
"Please friend i cannot take it no more" Armani whispered as tears slowly fell down her face that she didn't care to wipe off.
She smiled slightly as All in by NBA Youngboy came on next, she listened to this playlist a lot so she knew exactly what was next.
Came up outta that dirt pile, now I'm ballin'
And I don't need no church when I'm heaven-sent
Hope God put loyalty in all my friends
'Cause Lord knows I got they back to the end
Right now I'm recordin' with the mic' sittin' in my hand
I wish Three was on my left, where my styrofoam is
Got up out of Cypress
Went to the Woodlands, got a safe room in my crib
Ain't no tellin' when I'ma have to use it, we all know how I live
Keepin' my gun everywhere I go, we all know I'm still here
Question my girl but love her strong, we all know how that is
Prayin' for my daddy to come home, pray he get an appeal
Hope he come take me away, keep me from off of these pills
And come get me from off of this drank before my kidney say, "Fail"
Tell my son it made me calm, I don't know what I'm doin'
Tell my girl these hoes can't make me cum, I only want her to do it
Ten lines straight, goin' on ten days, my body ain't got no fluid
"Please, oh, please don't die tryin', on the real
All alone, stalks and the shottas are unjudgemental
It ain't too far, right by the A.M. Mart where they left my nigga
Won't be that long, yeah, it'll be a while
'Til my love life right again, killas on side again
Butterflies, paradise, them bullets left out the wind'" She sung lowly to the lyrics as they loudly played throughout her dark room, she groaned when her phone started ringing making the music cut off.
"Hello" she answered without looking at the caller Id.
"We still going to daddy gravesite tomorrow" Adrianna soft voice rang through her phone.
"Yeah imma pick you up around 2 so be ready" Armani replied wiping the tears that continued to fall down her face.
"Ok imma see you then, I love you" Adrianna said making Armani smile.
