𝐕𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐇𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫 ✰ 𝕚𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤

what you're missing ^

- this is incredibly sad :/ i feel as though i am incapable of writing anything else
- a lot of anger is in this as well lol
- cringe warning lol
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y/n's pov

oh how i wanted to rip her heart out of her cold body and crush it with my bare hands. she took what could've been mine. the one person i have wanted for so many years it was becoming unbearable. she called herself my best friend but her true character bled through showing that she was really just a lying selfish bitch.

if i could rip her hair out chunk by chunk, maybe she'd feel half as much pain as she caused me. but i cant. i can't be anything but the bigger person. as always.

vinnie radiated guilt. he had feelings for me but they were never as deep as his feelings for her. people cant choose who they love, so i never aimed my anger towards him. there was always frustration though. frustrated by the fact that i was better than her and he couldn't see it.

i was in love with him for going on 6 years. she knew that. she knew that i loved him and i'd do anything for him. she knew that i was uncomfortable with them being friends and talking behind my back. she never stopped though. she proceeded to stab me in the back repeatedly without hesitation.

earning his trust, listening to him as he opened up, flirting with him. all when i told her to stay away. she just couldn't do it. she couldn't just be happy for me when i told her that he started calling and texting me more. i shouldn't have said a word, but how was i supposed to know the person i trusted the most was going to betray me in the worst way she could.

i didn't trust anyone anymore.

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a few weeks later i called vinnie. i expected him to ignore it, but he picked up.

"hey...look i know you hate my guts but-" he interrupted me. "i don't hate you y/n...i could never hate you.." my throat burned. the sound of his voice was all too much. "i wanted to apologize for everything but i was too scared to call..i figured you wouldn't want to hear from me.." he spoke. "all i ever wanted was to hear from you.." he sighed in response. relief.

"can you come over ?" my voice shook as i asked. he hesitated. "i don't know if that's a good idea y/n." he always slid my name into sentences. no one else ever did that. "why ? did your mommy tell you to stay away from me ?" i said, referring to my ex best friend who was now in the talking stage with the love of MY life. brutal. "fuck it, alright.. i'll be there soon."

my heart dropped. he was really gonna come. to me. to my house. "thank you vin...i'll see you soon.." we hung up.

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it went from all attention on her, to all attention on me, to all attention on her again, to all attention on me again. i was gonna end this one way or another.

there he stood. in my bedroom. i looked up at him. he towered over me. i loved that about him, as intimidating as it was. i stepped closer. his jaw tightened, as if he was trying to refrain from something. i looked back and forth between his beautiful hazel eyes. his long gorgeous eyelashes. "vin..." i choked out.

he shook his head. "what do you want me to do y/n ?" his voice came out quiet. "i.." i hesitated. i stared deeper into his eyes. they were the forbidden pools i had always wanted to swim in. "i want you to pick me god damnit.." tears began to brim my waterline. he looked down at me. he didn't know what to do.

"just let me show you.." i spoke softly. "show me what ?" his voice broke. "what you're missing vin...you're missing so god damn much.." he looked at my lips, listening intently. "you're missing genuine laughs, fucking insane chemistry, someone with personality who can also support you and know how to make you feel better when you're anxious-" his lips cut me off. he was kissing me. i had waited.