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CHAPTER 18

Khyrieze Llanelli Villaraigosa's POV

"Uy Kerby, okay ka lang?" I turned my head on my left side meeting Cheryl's worried eyes.

"Of course! Why I wouldn't?" nakangiting response ko naman. Napakunot ito ng noo bago magsalita.

"Ang tahimik mo kasi, well tahimik ka naman talaga but I mean, something seems strange today. Tapos si Rian din hindi kumikubo so I'm worried if there's something happened" She said pointing at Ri who's now busy on her phone. I have no Idea if she can hear us or not because she's still focus on her phone.

"As far as I can remember, we didn't argue or what." I honestly said while looking at Rian. I saw her rolled her eyes, she can hear us.

Bigla naman kami napalingon sa taong patakbong dumating dito sa patio ng villa "Kanino nagpaalam si Step?" Billy hurriedly said. AA raised her hand. "Why did you let her? Gabi na! Aish! Akala ko pa naman mag o-overnight din siya" malungkot na sabi ni Billy bago pabagsak na umupo sa tabi ni Cheryl. Umalis kasi ito kanina dahil pinatawag siya nila coach since our group decided to stay until tomorrow morning. Maybe binilinan siya or anything.

"She told me na hindi daw siya pinayagan, so hinayaan ko na siyang umalis." AA said before drinking her juice.

"Ang alam ko nga until 5 pm lang siya dahil yun yung bilin ni Tita but mag 7pm ko na siya nakitang umalis." Sara  added.

"Really? I wonder what makes her stay a bit longer. Usually, kapag sinabi niyang aalis na siya aalis na siya." Cheryl said while caressing her own chin.

"Same here, hindi pa naman non ugali na suwayin si Tita—" AV was cutted off.

"She bid goodbye to her girlfriend" A cold voice interrupt their conversation. Agad naman akong napalingon kay Rian, it was her.

"What?! How come?! Bakit hindi ko alam?!" Cheryl shouted.  Samin lahat kasi, they're the closest. Since 1st year palang daw ay classmates na sila. They're basically bestfriend.

"How sure are you that it was her girlfriend?" kunot noong sabi ko. As far as I can remember, I was the one who's with Stephanie before she left, so how can Rian said those words?

"They're kissing" seryosong sabi nito sakin. Bigla naman akong napaayos ng upo. D-did she saw it? "I saw it with my both wide awake eyes" she seriously said. I gulp, and she just stared at me.

"I thought she's into you Kerb?" Billy asked made me look at her.

"I don't know" mahina kong sabi bago mapayuko.

"She's into Khyrieze, it was Khy—" I immediately cut Rian.

"Ri can we talk?" I said. Napatingin naman silang lahat samin. "Privately" I continued. Tinaasan niya muna ako ng kilay bago pumasok sa loob.

"Is everything alright Kerby?" It's Sara. Marahan naman akong tumango bago sumunod kay Rian. She headed into their room. This villa have 4 rooms. Yung sa kambal, kila Billy and Cheryl, Rian and Sara, and then the last one is mine.

"You should have told me" she coldly said as I enter their room. I immediately close the door behind me before approaching her.

"It's not what you think it is Ri" mahina kong sabi. Umiling ito.

"Hindi ako bulag Khyrieze" mariin na sabi niya. "Kitang kita ko kung paano ka makipaghalikan dun sa babae nayon. Gago ka! Sinabi ko naman sayo na wala kang mapapala sakin but you insisted! Then what now?! Gagaguhin mo ako?! Not because we're not together does it mean you can flirt around!" she greeted while pointing her index finger on my chest.

I take a deep breath before hugging her. She pushed me away then slapped me hard. Fuck! She's a goddamn spiker! Ugh!

"I love you Rian" mahina kong sabi at napayuko nalang.

"Hindi nga kita mahal! Mahirap bang intindihin yun?! Parang tanga naman e, kung gusto mo din naman gawin yung mga ganung bagay edi sana sinabi mo! Sana tumigil kana, siya nalang sana kinukulit mo at hindi ako! She can give you everything! She loves you! Bakit ba kasi pinagsisikdikan mo yung sarili mo sakin?! Paulit ulit kong sinabi sayo na straight ako! I don't care if you have that thing behind your pants, my answer is still a no!" mariin na sabi niya bago lumayo sakin. Bahagya akong nagtaas ng tingin dito and I saw her wipping her tears. Fuck! All I want is to make her happy, to let her know how much I love her. But if doing things like this will definitely hurt her, I'd rather stop, than to be the reason of her heartaches.

"I love you, I really do. Ilang beses ko nadin sinabi sayo na hindi ako naghihintay ng sagot. Mahal lang kita. I've said that because I know you already knew me na hindi ko magagawa sayo yung bagay na iniisip mo. Yes she kissed me, but not on my lips because she respect our relationship... Oh crap, we don't have. But she do respect you, and me either. Alam niya kung hanggang saan lang siya." I paused then wiped my tears. "I won't force you to believe me but please listen to me." I continued. Tinignan niya lang ako habang umiiyak.

"Bakit ba kasi hindi nalang siya?" mahinang tanong ni Rian. I weakly smiled at her.

"Kung pwede lang turuan yung puso Rian, baka wala ako dito. Pero wala e, nung gabing pinili ka nito, hindi ko na kayang piliin ang kahit na sino. Hindi naman kasi ako yung pumili sayo, kundi ito" I pointed my heart. "Pero I know nahihirapan ka din sa nangyayari, I'm sorry for being selfish, for insisting things na akala ko okay lang pero I know now na nahihirapan kana talaga. I'm sorry Rian, I'm really sorry. Don't worry, starting tomorrow everything will change." I firmly said. Tatalikod na sana ako nang magsalita itong muli.

"What are trying to say?" seryosong sabi nito.

"I'll stop, yun naman yung gusto mo. Mabuti pa siguro na tumigil nako dahil nakakasakit lang din naman ako. Isa pa, hindi naman ako nag hihintay ng oo mo e, gusto ko lang na maramdaman mo. So I guess, hindi naman na kailangan lantaran. Alam ko naman na alam mo kung gaano kita ka mahal, sapat na siguro yun." I said then smiled at her.

"Don't play with me, titigil ka kasi kayo na! Well, I'm happy for the both of you, atleast wala nang manggugulo sa buhay ko" she smiled widely. I suddenly clenched my fist. What the hell?!

Napupuno na ako but I chose to calm myself because I know somehow, I was wrong. "Hindi ako gago Rian, hinding hindi ko magagawang yung iniisip mo. Pero that's your mind, you can think whatever you wanted but please... Don't made me feel this way. I know you don't love me nor like me the way I did to you but at least, consider that I am your friend. We're friends, and we're good as hell not until you assumed that I kiss another woman. Don't be the person that you are not Rian... Just please" I said then walked out of her room. Narinig kong tinawag niya ako but I didn't stop. Pumasok nalang ako sa kwarto ko at duon binuhos ang mga luha ko.

I know she doesn't love me, But I don't get it. She's acting like I am the worst person that she have ever met in her entire life. When I look at her eyes, it is full of something I cant even explain. Her eyes are not the same eyes I fall into. She look so different earlier, but still, my heart keep beating her name.

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To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. - Madonna