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CHAPTER 54

Kerby's POV

"Bro take it slow" pagpigil sa akin ni Maico after I take another shot of tequila.

"Shh! Be quiet I'm enjoying" I shut her off and take another shot. "Whoaaa! Let's celebrate! I'm fucking miserable!" I shouted as I lift my hands on the air and sway it synchronizing the music.

"Kerby?! What the hell" napalingon ako sa tumawag sakin and to my surprise it's Irish. Agad itong lumapit sakin at pinaupo ako ng maayos.

"Hey babe what are you doing here?" I said while smirking. We need to act right? Tsk!

"Finally you came! I'm really sorry Irish, I just don't know who should I call because you know, her friends probably still mad at her and I cannot contact her ex naman" pagpapaumanhin ni Maico kaya nilingunan ko ito.

"Shhh! No you can't call them because I might tell them what really happened even if I don't want to" seryosong sabi ko.

"It's fine Maico, I can handle her. Let's go Kerby, umayos ka" mariin na sabi nito sa akin.

"No! I'm still drinking, nag eenjoy pako oh. Hindi ako lasing if that's what you're thinking" maayos na sabi ko dito. Hindi pa naman talaga ako lasing, dahil bukod sa okay pa ang pakiramdam ko, naalala ko pa lahat ng nalaman ko sa araw na ito.

"It doesn't matter, wee need to go home" matigas na sabi nito. Tinalikuran ko siya at tangkang iinom muli nang agawin niya ito sa akin at siya ang uminom.

"What the?" I said in disbelief.

"Fine! Let's get wasted!" she said and sat beside me.

"Irish, please ngayon lang. hayaan mo lang akong makalimot tas okay na, I'll move forward. Bigay niyo lang sakin yung gabi na ito" pakiusap ko. Bumuntong hininga ito before looking directly at my eyes while caresing my hand.

"I will babe, pagbibigyan kita sa gusto mo but please, sa condo nalang tayo so I'm hundred percent sure na you'll be fine. I'll be there if you want and I'm going listen to whatever it is that's running on your mind but please, listen to me kahit ngayon lang. Hindi ka pa nakakalusot sa trouble natin last time, huwag mo na dagdagan kasi I'm sure you'll regret that." Pakiusap nito. Damn! Why can't I resist her? The way she spokes to me, I can feel how genuine she is right now.

"O-okay" I softly said. Ngumiti naman ito at niyakap ako.

"I don't have any Idea how painful or how heavy it is for you but I just want you to know that you have me. You'll always have me Kerby" she said and cares my back. I tightened my hug to make her feel that I appreciated her. I might not be crying right now but I'm screaming inside.

After calming me, she immediately drove me back to my condo. Mas malapit kasi yung unit ko sa bar ni Maico kesa sa unit niya. Nakainom na rin kasi siya kaya mas minabuti ko nalang na dito mag aya. Dahil even though okay pa naman yung pag drive niya, it's better to be safe nalang din. Besides, I'm gonna pack my things to transfer to another unit. I can't live here knowing all of those. Hindi ako ganun ka tanga.

"Are you sure that you're going to drink with me? Wala ka ba masyadong gagawin sa council bukas?" I ask. Being a student leader has a lot of job to do and ayoko naman na hindi siya makakapasok bukas dahil sakin.

"Yes, dahil besides sa pagiging student president, ako rin ang isa sa anak ng may ari ng school so they can't boss me around" mayabang na turan nito. "Don't worry, wala naman ako gaano gagawin bukas. Papasok lang ako for my subjects and maybe check some concerns" she said then smiled at me. Tumango naman ako before i-open yung tequila na dala dala ko. Kinuha ko ito sa bar ni maico kanina, wala naman sila nagawa kundi hayaan ako.

"Fine, let's enjoy the night" I said and drank the liquor in my glass.

"Hey take it easy, malalasing ka agad" nag aalala sabi nito. I don't mind her, I just pour another in my glass.

"By the way Irish, would you mind if I asked when did you and Kyle met? And how did it went? When did it start? Do you-" she cut me off.

"Ang dami mo namang tanong" purong tagalog na sabi nito bago umayos ng upo. Siguro kung wala ako sa siywasyon ko ngayon ay inasar ko na ito. Sobrang cute niya kasi magtagalog "Basta I remember we're at the same hospital when we met. She's recovering from the accident niya and ako naman nag pa check up. Then we vibe and started dating. As far as I can remember everything is doing well in our relationship until her memories starts to came back. Then ayun naging shaky na, but still we held unto each other. Lahat nang sinabi niya pinanghawakan ko, but one day I saw your girl laying beside her and that's it. We're ruined" she immediately look away and sip on her glass. "Why did you asked?" She seriously said. Napakamot lang ako sa ulo. "I guess you've learned their story?" Natatawang sabi nito bago niya lagukin lahat nung nasa baso niya. "Funny right? We met people to made them realized that their story isn't yet over" she continued.

"What happened? Why and how did they met again?" I asked as if she can answer every question in my head.

"I don't know either, everything is still puzzle for me. Pero naalala ko nung nalaman ko na meron siyang history sa iba before she lost her memory, hinanap ko yung girl para if in case may mga isesettle sila makapag prepare ako. But then I saw Rian with a girl and that's you, I don't know if you can still remember yung girl na nasa clinic sa San Benito, I was that girl na nakahiga sa bed nung dumating ka and then she follows right? Kaya umalis na rin ako noon kasi I'm not ready to meet her. After that I go back to manila and akala ko magiging okay na lahat na hindi na nila kakailanganin yung isa't isa but I was wrong, iba parin talaga kapag ang kalaban natin ay yung destiny" she was about to take another shot pero inagaw ko ito.

"You had enough, hindi ka pwedeng magpakalasing" I said. Tumango ito at ngumiti sakin. So it was her, that time I thought it was just a ghost dahil sobrang putla niya noon.

"Small world no? Kung alam ko lang na ganito ang mangyayari na sabihan sana kita, hindi ka sana nasasaktan ng ganito. I'm sorry Kerby" she said then she starts crying. Agad akong lumapit para yakapin siya. "Sabi ko dadamayan kita pero ako yung umiiyak para sayo" pagpapatuloy nito. I remained silent and caress her back. Now everything's making sense, hindi talaga siya nanatili sa akin dahil magal niya ako, kundi dahil minahal niya yung pagmamahal ko. Fuck it!

"Don't say sorry, it's not your fault. Hindi natin kasalanan na gamitin tayo because of our vulnerability. We just love them too much and that's our fault. We loved them too much." I said. Humiwalay na ito sakin at hinarap ako.

"What should we do?" She asked.

"I don't know, I don't want to take revenge, but I'll stick to what we've planned before." I said then hold her hand. " but please Irish, don't you ever fall for me, for my gestures and everything that I'll do for you. Please, don't you ever let your guard down because I can't promise you anything. I'm building up my walls higher than before to the point that I'm trusting nobody. I'm tired of being betrayed and played, call me selfish but starting from this day, I'll do things that will benefit me and satisfied my needs but I'll never be able to let anyone climb and destroy my walls. Regardless of who you are, I'll show no mercy. Do that same shit so no one could use you, promise me that" I said and she nodded. Things might change after this day, but one things is for sure. I'm going to save this girl from me and from everyone. We're on the same shoe, and I wont let them use her the way that they used me.

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