And I would disappear if I could, But there is nowhere I can go. Nowhere I can be alone, In silence, somewhere, where nobody will ever know. And it would be secret place, A place that only I could call home.
To find solace in thoughts, Which I wish were not my own. And it is confusing at times, How I want to be lonely, but not alone. And I would like to find comfort in the arms of another, But that would be out of my comfort zone.
So to protect myself, I'll bear the pain in silence. Away from stares of pity and fictitious words, Before I loose my sanity and run out of patience. And I shall do my best to smile, To keep up my act of bravery and confidence.
To keep others happy, I will go the extra mile. For then it would not matter, How I feel on the inside, whether calm or hostile. Pushing aside the many problems in my life, And I can pretend it will be all worth while.
Shamiah James Blugh Smultronställe Created and published on November 18th, 2021
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