𝚂𝚖𝚞𝚕𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝ä𝚕𝚕𝚎

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"𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐬."
- 𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐚𝐡 𝐉𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐁𝐥𝐮𝐠𝐡

And I would disappear if I could,
But there is nowhere I can go.
Nowhere I can be alone,
In silence, somewhere, where nobody will ever know.
And it would be secret place,
A place that only I could call home.

To find solace in thoughts,
Which I wish were not my own.
And it is confusing at times,
How I want to be lonely, but not alone.
And I would like to find comfort in the arms of another,
But that would be out of my comfort zone.

So to protect myself,
I'll bear the pain in silence.
Away from stares of pity and fictitious words,
Before I loose my sanity and run out of patience.
And I shall do my best to smile,
To keep up my act of bravery and confidence.

To keep others happy,
I will go the extra mile.
For then it would not matter,
How I feel on the inside, whether calm or hostile.
Pushing aside the many problems in my life,
And I can pretend it will be all worth while.

Shamiah James Blugh
Smultronställe
Created and published on November 18th, 2021

Shamiah James BlughSmultronställeCreated and published on November 18th, 2021

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