WISH FOR LOVE (Jinkook ff)✅

46. Lift - 3

Jin pov

Oh my god... Oh my god... Oh my god...

Save me.. Save me... Save me... Save me....

I gulped and continued looking at jungkook without even blinking to know about his movements. I am really scared now. Especially that dream is messing up my already complicated mind.

"Ho..."  Oh my god.

"W-what?"  I sluttered.

"Huh?" 

" N-no..... You called me?"  I asked him calming myself.

" Umm... No... I just sighed... Why?" sigh? It was a sigh?

"Oh... It was a sigh... I thought... No nevermind.... You can sigh... You can  sigh as much as you want...... I don't have any problem "  I blurted out.

What the hell am i saying? I am getting insane. I am making fun of myself.

I awkwardly smiled at a confused Jungkook.

He looked at me for sometime and smiled at me back and continued fanning himself with the coat as he unbuttoned one more button in his shirt. Its just two button left. Is he going to some body show? Pervert. He is sweating. Well me too. But i already buttoned up my shirt not considering about the warm climate as i don't want to take any risk.

I sighed. When is the power gonna come back? I want to escape from here.

"Jin" I flinched when he called me.

"Huh?" I clutched my chest due to his sudden call. All is well Jin. All is well. All is well.

"You okay?" He asked me. I nodded frantically giving him a fake smile. Of course i don't want to trigger him.

"You seems not..... Anyway... I am really sorry for this. Its my fault that you trapped here. I should be more responsible. I forget about the message of power cut. I know my sorry won't change anything. But... I am really sorry Jin.... It just some more hours, then the power will come back. Please bare it till then. " He said me in a convincing tone. Ofcource he starts like this, then his demeanor changes.I know you Jungkook.

He and his worthless sorry. Who needs his sorry?

I screamed mentally. I really wanted to yell at him. But i composed myself. Reason same. I don't want to trigger this psycho.

I sighed and again fake smiled at him.

"Its okay Jungkook... I know you don't do this on purpose.. I don't blame you... So.... Yeah... No worries." Thank God. I didn't sluttered.

Yes Jin. Just like that keep the act. Jungkook looked at me with confuse all over his face.

"Oh... Yeah.... I mean.... Thanks... I thought you are gonna yell at me for this... Well... I deserve that... Anyway... Thanks..." He said me in a disbelief tone. Shit.... Did I overreact? ... Okay... Keep the act. Just smile Jin. Just smile.... Everything is fine.

I give him a small smile. He too smiled at me back.

Silence..

" Umm... Jin? " He called me again.

" W-what?" I replied.

" Can i ask you something?" No. Please. Don't open that ugly mouth. Let me have some mental peace.

"umm... Yeah... Sure." I replied him screaming mentally.

" I know its not the right time... But..... Umm.... I want to know something from you... Like.... About Jimin.... You know why he ran away from the marriage right.... Umm... I want to know about-

"Why do you want to know about that now? After every thing you caused..... Are you planning on some revenge on him? My hyung's matter is over for you. He is no more in your life. So there is no need to know about his matter. Just leave him alone. You already doing your revenge on me right... So just continue that... Leave my hyung alone... " I retorted cutting his speech. I am angry... Why he was bringing my hyung again?

I clutched my fist and looked away from him. I don't want to continue this. It will make it worse.

I closed my eyes and leaned on the wall.

I didn't hear any response from him for sometime.

But then he respondedwhich caused me to look at him.

"Jin... I know how much you care about Jimin.... But... Think from my side too... Do you think everything was easy for me?... I loved him... And i asked him hundred times whether he is okay with this marriage or your parents compelled him. If he said he wasn't ready i would have stopped this marriage... But what did he do? Ran way just before the marriage... I was not okay then... I felt betrayed.. I feel like he was making me a fool... Along with that my Dad is compelling me to marry you? Someone i don't know.... Someone i never loved before. I know you are not ready for that either. But.... Life does not give me a choice. I was angry.. I was hurt... I was frustrated.... I... I was helpless then....... You keep blaming me for ruining your life... But am i the real one who ruined your life?... Think Jin... You know the answer... It was Jimin... If he didn't do that, then it won't be end up like this.... I wouldn't have hurted you.... I.... I wouldn't have make you cry... You.... "

He sighed and grabbed his hair. I can sense the anger and frustration rising in him. I looked down biting my lips..

I hate him... But.... Now... When he said this much... I don't know... I feel weird in my heart... Is it guilt.....

He is right... I can't blame him for everything.... My hyung is responsible for what happened.... But.... I can't blame him though... He was also helpless... Still... He should have tell Jungkook about his problem... Then... Maybe... It won't get complicated like this...

Also if he hurt me, then i hurt him too... We weren't good to each other. Always arguing and annoying eachother.... But....

He was good at me sometimes too.... Well i never treat him like a good one?

Did i went overboard...?

Did i do something wrong?

Why it hurts now...

I can feel tears well up in my eyes. I blinked it away and looked at him who has his eyes closed now as he was leaning on the wall.

" I.... I am sorry...."

Thoughts

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