^ I read this quote and thought it was really inspirational and links to this imagine.
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You avoided your own gaze in the mirror; you had gotten to the point where you were so displeased with the way you looked, that you couldn't even look in the mirror anymore and it hurt.
You had been asked out on your third date by Harry, but you couldn't go. Your insecurities had gotten the best of you as you sent him the text;
"Hi Harry, I'm sorry but I'm cancelling our date, were just not going to work out. You'll find someone much better x"
I'm not good enough and I never will be, even though I've sent him a text, I'm sure he won't miss me, you thought.
You were wearing a pair of joggers and a t-shirt with your hair left natural and minimal makeup as you made your way to the supermarket which you expected should be quiet with it being 8 o clock in the evening.
Walking into the shop, you stopped in your tracks when you noticed Harry was standing by the counter, he had bought something and was now looking directly at you.
You quickly exited the shop and began to walk home, away from Harry before hearing him call your name.
"Y/N, wait!" He called as you sighed, turning around to face him.
"Why did you cancel our date? I thought things were going well?" He asked, confusion evident in his facial expression.
"Why are you bothered? I'm nothing special." You said quietly as he shook his head.
"You are to me," he said, stepping closer to you as you stepped away from him.
"How can you say that? We've only been on two dates,"
"Because your different, Y/N. Your someone who lights up my whole world every time I see you and I don't understand what I did wrong for you to call everything off." He explained.
"Harry, I can't. Any boy who is interested in me will be making a mistake, just like you would be." You told him.
"Why would it be a mistake? It doesn't feel like a mistake at all." He said firmly.
"I'm saving you. You deserve much better and I deserve to be on my own."
"Why would you say that?" He asked, sounding hurt.
"I'm not your type, I'm not anyone's type because I'm an annoying, insecure girl who will only drive you away. I'm nothing and you are everything, don't waste your time on someone like me." You said, tears welling in your eyes.
"Your not expected to be perfect." Harry said, gently taking a hold of your hand and pulling you closer to him.
"I'm no where near average," you whispered as tears threatened to fall.
"Your everywhere near beautiful in my eyes because you might have issues with yourself and the way you are but you are who you are and I love who you are already. I want to be with you Y/N and I want to see that natural side of you more often because it's the real you." He explained kissing your forehead as you tried to pull away.
"No Y/N, I don't want to let you go. I thought you may have had insecurities because I could see the pain in your eyes on the very first date and it hurt me to think you weren't happy." He added, pulling you closer as you shook your head, tears falling from your eyes.
"I suppose I should be used to pity by now," you said.
"I do not want you out of pity, Y/N, I want you because you make up the puzzle I have been trying to put together for years now. My heart aches for you because you are the one person I have been looking for and now that I've found you, I am not letting you go so easily." He said, tears welling in his own eyes as you saw the compassion and love he held in his eyes.
"Everyone has at least one thing that makes them perfect in someone's eyes and I have nothing, why can't you see that?" You cried.
"Loving yourself means learning and learning takes time, you need to believe in me, believe I can show you how to love yourself. Please, just give me a chance." He pleaded.
You sighed, feeling overwhelmed by a boy actually wanting to help you. You had rejected people in the past due to your insecurities, but now you feel like you need this in order to help yourself.
"Okay," you sighed, feeling relieved.
"One chance." You said, tiredly.
"One chance is all I need." He smiled.
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To any of you who don't love yourself and don't believe you ever will, I understand. I feel exactly the same but I believe in time, maybe, I can. With strength, belief, hope, patience and time, I believe there's a chance. I don't know if any of you's do the same but whenever I start to think that I don't look as bad as I think, I look in the mirror or something happens and it sets me back. Have patience guys because I know we can love ourselves and be happy with ourselves one day<3
Take every opportunity that comes to you because it could be the start of your happiness and if it's not, you took a risk and it was a brave thing to do.
I'm sorry I haven't been updating as regular, I'm just not happy with myself at the minute :(
Lauren<3
