Shawn Mendes Imagines

124 - Always

I sighed, laying on my bed, the sheets all wrinkled and messy from tossing and turning all night. I have been struggling to fall asleep for the past five hours and I have officially given up. Trying to sleep with someone or something in your mind can do that to you. It's as if the thought is eating you up alive and forcing you to look for a resolution to a problem you have no control over.

I pushed myself up from the bed and stared out the window. It was nearly six in the morning and the sun was starting to rise, slowly but surely. I slipped my legs to the side of the bed and stood up, walking over to look at the scenery. I watched the light slowly peeking through from the horizon as the waves disturbed the calmness of the water. I knew that moving here was the best decision I could make. I have always loved the sea. I have always loved the contrast between the waves and the white sand. I loved the perfect balance of the warmth of the sun and the coldness of the water in a perfect day.

I know for a fact that it would be freezing outside considering the time so I quickly grabbed my cardigan and shoes before making my way outside. I put my cardigan on and made my way down the porch steps, slowly walking towards the shore. Another thing I love about living here is the feeling of the sand in between my toes and I walk around with no shoes. It was finally bright enough to see my surroundings which made it easier for me to see where I was going. Once I was a couple feet away from where the water washed up on the shore, I sat down on the ground, pulling my legs up to my chest while using the cardigan to warm the uncovered skin.

As I stared out into nothingness, I can't help but think about my conflicting feelings. Before moving here, I used to be very close friends with someone whom I eventually fell in love with as we got older. But I had a feeling he never saw me in the same way. A few years back, we had decided to travel along with some of our other friends and it was at this same beach when he told me he wanted to ask someone out. As much as it hurt, I told him to go for it. And he did. They were together for a couple years and recently, I found out that they had split up.

He didn't tell me anything about it. You would think he would since I was his best friend but we grew apart once they got together. He's famous and I never was. Our schedules never matched up due to his fame and my career so we never got to hang out that much then she came into the picture. I also distanced myself from him because of my unspoken feelings. And learning about the split made it hard for me to determine what I felt about it. I was sad for him since he was in love with her for years yet at the same time, I was relieved. I never liked her but I always sucked it up for him.

"Pakiusap lang... lumayas ka sa'king isipan." I muttered under my breath. [Translation: Please get out of my mind]

I don't know how long I have spent just looking at the waves. I didn't even realize that someone was walking towards me until an all too familiar voice eventually snapped back to reality alongside the sound of someone walking on sand with shoes on.

"I knew I would find you here."

I flinched and turned my head to look at the hooded figure beside me. It took a bit for my eyes to adjust and realize that it was Shawn. He sat down beside me, placing both of his arms behind him and leaning onto them. He used one hand to reach up and take one of his mask's bands off his ear. He eventually took it off and put it in his pocket.

"Hey." I uttered, still shocked that he was sitting beside me at the moment.

"Hey." He replied, a small smile forming on his lips as he turned his head to look towards me. "You know, I never thought you would eventually move here."

"Yeah? Well, I fell in love with this place when we first went here. I wanted to stay here even just for vacation."

"I can't blame you. This place will forever be breath-taking."