Shawn Mendes Imagines

35 - Stepbrother? (part 2)

9:37 PM

I packed all my things into my bags and waited for his text. He left as soon as we planned out the escape. I don't know where he's planning to take me but I know that I want to get away from this place. My mother lives in a different state so I can't just move in with her. Besides, after the divorce, it was the court that decided on me living with my father so transferring to mom's would go against it. Maybe this way, that asshole could finally get it through his thick skull that it's either making my love become my brother or me. I hope this could work since that selfish bastard might choose the other option.

To pass the time, I took one of my old stationary papers and a ballpen to write my final letter to my father. I may despise him but he's still my dad. The least I could do is write to him for the last time.

I know this seems stupid and don't blame it on Shawn or how pathetic being a teenager is. I'm leaving for now, if not forever. I could stoop to your level and leave without a word but you ARE the one whose sperm fertilized my mother's egg in order to produce me so the least I could do is say goodbye.

Sometimes I wish that it didn't end up like this. I wish you never cheated. I wish I lived with mom instead. I wish I could forgive you and I wish I could stop hating you but every time I try to, you find a way to mess it all up. And sometimes... I even wish I was never born. Maybe it was my fault that your marriage went downhill. Maybe having me was a mistake. After all, I WAS the one who caught you cheating.

But in the end, it still happened. You're still my dad even though you fucked up. I'm sorry but I think leaving is better than going through the pain again and again. But think of it this way. I know it hurt you to get a divorce. I know it would hurt to lose the only child who had to stay with you as well. It also hurts to think that the guy who has helped me through it all is now about to be my brother. I love him, okay? If you were in our shoes, you would understand. But you have to choose. It's either me or marrying my boyfriend's mother. I know it's selfish but you can't have both.