Rivalry

chapter 18

I'm standing outside the school, leaning against Sebastian's car, waiting for him to come out. It's starting to get dark outside, and I'm starting to get impatient. Bruh, I've been standing here for 30 minutes. OK Ryan, while you are waiting, let's talk about what happened back there. These past few days, something has been bothering me. Every time I'm with Sebastian, every time I think about him, I feel something inside of me. I don't know what it is because I've never experienced this before. I'm trying to ignore it and hoping to forget what I'm feeling, but hell, every time I'm with him, that feeling gets stronger and stronger. I don't want to think that maybe I like him. Or maybe I'm attracted to him because there's no other reason why I'm getting a weird feeling about him. I'm not gay. If I kiss him, if I get aroused by his touch in the near future, it will be because of our body. Our bodies react to the things that give us pleasure, even if we don't want them. What I'm trying to say here is that fuck Sebastian. Fuck him for making me confused, for making me uncomfortable at the same time comfortable with his touch and presence.

"Hey." I was back to my pace as I heard a soft voice in front of me. "Are you ok? Why didn't you get inside?" Sebastian asked me, tempting to hold my hand, but he decided not to. Here comes that weird feeling."

Your car is locked, idiot. How can I get inside?" I'm trying my best to sound pissed and mad.

"Oh. Sorry." He quickly got into the side of the car and opened it as he got inside. I heard a click, and the door finally opened. I hopped in and put my seatbelt on.

"What took you so long?"

"They forgot to put the balls inside the changing room." He said as he started the engine. The ride home was pretty quiet, and I was starting to get uncomfortable. There's something that I wanted to say, but i couldn't say it. I still can't get over about the kiss. That intense kiss we share. I nearly got a boner back there and luckily he made a wrong move. There was a time when he was looking at me and then back to the road, then back at me again. Dude, if you want to say something, please say it. The tension is getting thicker, so do something, or maybe I will.

"Eyes on the road, Seb." I said, not looking at him. I heard him chuckle. I leaned on the headrest as I crossed my arms over my chest.

"The thing that happened to you back then? Do your parents know?"

"I thought I already told you the story?" This time I looked at him.

"Yes, but you didn't tell me if someone knew about what happened except for me."

"Why do you want to know?" I asked him curiously. We stared for a 5 seconds.

"Because I wanted to know?" If i answer his questions, what will i get? Maybe I'll ask him too before giving him my answer.

"In one condition." He raised his eyes brows.

"Oh, we're bargaining now." He Chuckles as he shook his head.

"Come on. It'll be unfair if I'll answer you without something i can benefit of." I sit straight leaning as i face him.

"What do you want?"

"You- what the fuck Sebastian!" My eyes open wide as i put my hand on my chest. "Do you want to die?!" I angrily shouted as I landed a punch on his shoulder. The motherfucker just stopped the car without any signal. I almost lost my soul there, dude.

"You.. what did you say?"

"I was joking, Seb! You could have killed us!" Fuck! I know I'm overreacting but hell, if you're in my shoes i swear you'll beat this motherfucker to death. I almost break my neck.

"It was your fault. Don't.. don't do that again." Wait.. am I hallucinating? Did i hit my head somewhere when he break?

"You're blushing." I'm sure what i saw. He was red for a second.