Is This the Right Way?

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I don't end up going to school on friday, and i ended up spending the whole day at the hospital with Carla. She's ordered to bed rest to rest her heart. My mom picks me up and brings Carla and her mother home. She brings me a bag with my stuff in it because we all agreed that I'm staying at Carla's for the weekend. After what just happened, I've come to realize that life can change in an instant. Alex is already at the house when we get there and he comes running up to me and Carla pulling us into a big hug. One of those giant bear hugs. I can tell that he's been crying. His eyes are red, his hair's all messy and he's still in sweatpants. But I'm not complaining.
I hold the door open as Carla gets pushed through and helped gently onto the couch. I go up to her room and get some pillows and blankets for her.
Back downstairs, I'm sitting on the couch in between Carla and Alex. Holding onto each of their hands. I never want to let go. I'm next to the two most important people in my life. But something just doesn't feel right. I love Alex. I really do. But what happens after? After this is all over? When things get back to normal...