As Pure As The Driven Snow

Chapter 19

"You're not picking up my calls lately." bungad ni Alejo sa akin

Nakipag kita ako sakaniya ngayon malapit sa CDA para matapos ang nasa isipan ko. There are some things the I want to clarify with him.

Ayoko naman na patagalin ang nasa isipan ko.

"Kumusta ka?" he asked

"I'm fine, how about you?" I cleared my throat

"I'm doing good, naging busy lamang ako nung mga nakakaraan pero ngayon ay malapit ko na iyon matapos."

Tumango ako at nginitian ang binata. Hindi ko alam kung papaano uumpisahan ang magtanong dito. O kung dapat pa bang magtanong dito? The first day I gave him myself, that's the day I know I have to trust him.

Hinding makipagrelasyon sa tao kung wala akong maibibigay na tiwala dito.

"I-uhm." he looked at me while waiting to what I was going to say. "I missed you." sa huli ay iyon ang inilabas ng bibig ko

He parted his lips to his shock pero agad rin nakabawi at ngumisi. "I know." May kung anong ngiti sa mga labi nito

He didn't even bother to say I miss you too?? I miss you too my nieves???! really Alejandro?

"You're cheating on me!" bulalas ko hindi iyon patanong kaya agad ikinagulat nito

I didn't know how he did it or if he even did it, basta ba ay pinag isipan ko na agad ito nang masama. But instead of being disappointed he displays his face naturally, as if it's neutral kind of relationship. Na mag bintang at huwag mag tiwala.

"What is it that makes you think I'm cheating?" he left out a chuckled while looking at me straight amused at my face.

Ano bang nakakatawa sa sitwasyon? we barely see each other, maraming nangyayari sa mga balita at pati na rin sa media, they said he's been dating someone! behind my back? I mean, personally I don't take that seriously, pero pati si islana ay nagkakaroon ng problema sa pagbubuntis niya sa hindi ko malaman kung sino sa contreras ang ama?

"I don't even have to ask, it's all written in your face."

Lalong naging dahilan iyon nang pagkulo ng dugo ko.

"I won't cheat on you." He assured me "You're the first and the only I wanted to keep, Nieves, why would I cheat?"

Hindi pa rin ako nakakibo rito dahilan para magbuntong hininga siya. "I'm not a boy, Nieves, I don't play games and such, and I don't see any reason to fool you. Sa huli kung gagawin ko iyon ay ako rin ang talo."

Sunod sunod na patak nang mga luha ang naglandas sa pisngi ko. I didn't expect to be this emotional today, ilang araw ko rin kinimkim ang hinanakit ko rito. He didn't come to see, if he does, it's barely! it made me feel like I am asking for a spare key. Hindi ko na makuha agad ang atensyon niya. I mean, he won't forget to call and text everyday. Ngunit sa pagod ko at sa mga bali-balita ay parang ginagapangan ako nang negatibong isipin.

"Hush baby.. shh, what's bothering you? tell me." agad na pinalis nito ang mga luha sa pisngi ko pagkatapos ay hinalikan sa noo ko.

"Hindi ko alam!!" hagulgol ko. "Nagsasabi ka ba talaga ng totoo?!"

"Of course, what good will bring if I lie?" he chuckled. "Silly, don't overthink things, my Nieves."

He scooped my lips and kiss it as if he missed something. Kissing him back helps me to relax and not to overthink our relationship. Siguro ay talagang napuno lamang ako sa sunod sunod na pangyayari.

After that day, I decided not to tell him about islana, kahit na kating kati ako magtanong tungkol sa pamilya nila para malaman kung sino ang nakabuntis sa pinsan ko ay hindi ko ginawa. I have to keep myself distance from their issues, it's not mine to meddle with.