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~|:|~ A Desperate Plea for The End of Us ~|:|~

Please

Hold on
To whatever this may be.

I know it's not what you wanted
or even close to what you expected

But I can't make it through without this

I know you're falling out of love
I've never been enough
But sometimes I'm too much
and you can't follow through with the promise you made

I won't keep you too close
I don't need you to stay
miserable by my side.

I won't make you be only mine
If you have somewhere you'd rather be
or someone you'd rather see
take your freedom.

But don't leave me behind
even if it's all fake
even if you don't keep me in your heart

Please, hold on,
just pretend,
tell me I'm good enough
tell me you'd never change me
tell me you won't replace me
tell me, just say something,
so I can hold on to my delusions

Please tell me
I'm good enough for you
tell me I met your expectations
tell me I surpassed them

Please swear to me
tell me I helped just a bit

Please tell me I saved you
Please say I made
even
the smallest
impact.

So I can have something to live for.

It can all be a lie.
I don't care
I won't mind

I want something to hold on to in life
A reason to thrive.
Even if I'm being delusional.

Please say something
tell me
I eased your mind
tell me I healed your heart
tell me I did something special

Tell me you enjoyed the ride
Tell me you loved every part of the journey
please

tell me.

'cause I think I'll lose my mind if you don't
at least just pretend I was someone you loved
at least just pretend that I was enough
at least for a while, someone you could trust
at least tell me now, right here in this moment
at least maybe then, I'll sink very slowly
at least maybe then, I won't be so lonely
to know all this time, it's been an illusion
too good to be true, but I always knew that

Please, please, please, please, PLEASE . . . 

Please tell me, just lie
tell me

I was loved at some point.