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~|:|~ Nowhere To Go ~|:|~

I want to

                  shrink.

I wish my voice could falter
and go silent
and my ears could never hear again.

I wish my lungs would never need air
That they'd never rise and fall
in that painstakingly raw, human way
that reminds me I'm alive.

I want my mind to go blank

To never hear s c   a   tt   e r     e    d th o    u g    h           t  s
running back and forth
bouncing off the walls

I wish my eyes would dull
lose that glittering sheen
that says what words often can't
Wish I'd never have to look at
the piercing, vivid, otherworldly colors
that burn into them

I want the world to go silent, dull, unheard
I don't want to take up all this space

When nobody listens but everyone looks
with those scornful, mocking eyes

There's no place I'd rather be than
nowhere.

Home is no good
Not welcoming or warm
But the outside world is no different
I want to fall off the face of the earth
And be lost to the world forever.