We met again

Epilogue

"Ang magandang gawin nyo sakanya ay ilayo sya sa lugar o sa tao na pwedeng maka-trigger sakanya. That is the last thing you can do para tuluyan sya maging okay." I heard what the doctor said.

We are here again for the last session with my psychiatrist.

I'm just looking at the open window while they are talking when they were already done talking we decide to go home.

"I'm wishing your genuine happiness, Mr. Ford." I just nodded at what the doctor said before we left to her office.

"We will go back to the Philippines." Napalingon ako kay Dad nang sabihin nya yon.

"And you will go with us." He added while looking at me in the rearview mirror.

I just nodded.

"This is for your own good, son." Mom said.

Tinanguan ko lang ulit sila.

I can't complain about that I know that they are just doing that for my own good and I also want to have a new environment around me.

Baka kapag nasa ibang lugar na ako hindi ko na ulit sila ma-disappoint.

I can't believe that I let someone do that to me.
I can't believe that I let someone ruin my dream...

To be honest, I don't give a fuck about that person it's almost 2 years since we broke up. She's the reason why I'm here in this situation but I'm blaming myself because I let her put me here. I'm blaming myself because I disappoint my parents, ang pinaka-iniiwasan ko na mangyari.

I lost my dream.

"Are you done packing?" Parang nagising ako sa malalim na pag-iisip ng biglang pumasok si mom sa room ko.

"I'm almost done." I said at pinagpatuloy ang pag-iimpake.

Naramdaman ko na naupo sya sa tabi ko.

"I hope you understand why we are doing this." I stop to what I am doing and look at my mom.

"I understand," I said. "I'm sorry again..." nakayuko kong sabi.

"Your feelings are valid here, we understand you." She smiles at me.

" 'Wag mo masyado isipin ang daddy mo hindi nya lang talaga inaasahan na mangyayari yon." Dagdag nya.

Tumango lang ako.

Mauuna sila mom sa'kin sa paguwi ng Pilipinas dahil may business sila na dapat asikasuhin don.

"Reese." Agad akong napalingon ng tawagin ako ni Dad.

Ngayon na kasi ang uwi nila sa Philippines kaya sinamahan ko sila na makasakay sa sasakyan na maghahatid sakanila sa airport.

"I'm still rooting for you." I nodded at binigyan sya ng tipid na ngiti. "See you tomorrow."

Mom hugs me before they leave while dad tapped my back.

"Kung may makikilala ka man ulit sana yung makakabuti na sayo." Huling sabi ni Dad bago sila tuluyan umalis.

I sighed.

I don't know if I'm ready for things like that again I just want to focus on my goal.

"Mom" Sagot ko sa tawag ni mommy pagkababa ko ng eroplano.

Napakainit talaga sa bansa na 'to.

"Where are you?" she asked.

"Palabas na ng airport." Sagot ko. "Nasa labas na yung maghahatid sa'kin sa condo na tutuluyan ko, right?