The wrong star

Fight for the future

Last week I had one of the worst days of my life, I wasn't the one who lit the houses of my brothers on fire but I might as well be. That's what they must have thought... that's how I feel.

Miles and I have been in conflict, I need him and he knows it but being here... there's just too much risk that someone will notice so he only stays with me during the night and talks to me about other things when everyone's around.

He asks and asks questions away and I like to share with him, I do. But not now. Not when this is used against us.

Spider seems to be having a hard time too and that brings me some comfort, sometimes when I'm up and out, looking at the sea as we rush past it, he comes and sits down with me. We talk about home... my home somehow became his home too, he was born a human kid but raised as a Na'vi and I know this is hard on him too.

"They say we'll get to the other island in a couple of hours," he says as he passes me another bag with seeds. He had one more left.

I sigh and rest my head on the railing.

Oh mother... please, give me a sign. Make this stop... make them stop. I beg.

"Anatuat..." Spider calls for me.

"What do you think will happen if we find Jake in any of those islands? what will they do to the people...? To my aunt and my cousins?" I wonder out loud and a shiver runs through him at the thought.

"I hope they don't find them, I hope Jake's gathering an army and takes them all down," Spider says.

To that I smile a little.

"I hope so too kid," I answer and turn to look at the sea again.

We both stay there until the ship starts to slow down. I rub my belly if just for a second and then come to terms with the fact that I must remain strong.

"Let the shit show begin," Spider says offering me his hand to stand up.

"The colonel wants you to go, front and center" the female soldier comes looking for us and points with the gun to make us move.

I roll my eyes at her and start walking.

Miles and I look at each other for just one second, his eyes already apologizing to me.

I take a deep breath as we walk toward the people.

Everyone's down on their knees again, a gun pointed at their heads as I ask them about Jake.

"We've never seen them, they're forest people," The leader says.

"They're talking too much," the female soldier complains and I death stare at her.

"He says he doesn't know. They're not from here" I say referring to Jake.

Miles sighs and lowers in front of the clan leader, looking into his eyes.

"Listen man, whatever you know, it is all valuable. Help us and your people will be fine" he says and the soldiers sneaker.

I translate what he said in a more respectful way.

"Why are you helping them?" the chief's wife says to me.

"I'm not helping them, I was taken by them and I try to help them communicate. I promise they only want Jake Sully" I explain.

The female soldier is looking funny at me. She's the worst at Na'vi of them all so, I'm pretty sure she got nothing.

"Too much talking" she says and pushes the woman down.

"Be careful!" I shout and leap at her, helping her up.

She's with child.

The clan leader also went a little feral when he saw this aggression.