My Fucked Up Life

Chapter 1)

So school was a bust a whole two hours I lasted,
I guess its just harder to stay foused nowadays,
what do you expect ,me to sit there let dumb-ass teachers being bitches,or lisen to how Kaite is going to dinner with my ex to be perfecty honest I don't even like the girl now even less so,
"Mum I'm home"
"Tara? Why are you home early?"
"Well..."
"You faked another note,didn't you?"
"Mabye..."
"You know one day they're gonna figure it out "she said laughing my mum is cool like that she dosen't really care if I come home early me and her get to hang out more,
"Yeah, but until then I'm sweet" I said as I sat on jumped on the kitchen bench throwing a grape into my mouth,
"Ben home yet? "I asked
"No,unlike you he dosent skip school evey second day, and get off my bench I have to cook on that you know" I got off the bench wrapping my arms around my mum from ehe side and reasting my head on her shoulder,
"But mum, how could I ever foucus at school when I miss you so so much" I said in a kiddy tone,
"Suck up" she said as I pulled away from her,
"So..."she started but stopped
"What? "
"My and your farther are going on a twenty-six day cruise with the Matthews"
"Okay..."
"And Ashton and Mason will be staying here. With you and Ben"she said quickly I took a step back,
"WHAT!"
"sweety don't over reacct"
"No ,no, no, no, no, if he is staying here as if I am "
"The thing is you're only 17,you don't have a say in this, case closed" I looked at her my eyes wide with shock
"well then fuck you" I spat at her before leaving the kitchen and rushing to my music room, music has always been my escape,I walked over to my guitar, taking it to my room.

I played for what felt like years ,it was only a few hours,I played unitl I heard about knock on my door
"What? "
"It's me, can I come in" Ben said from the other side of the door
"Sure" not a second later he walked in "the the Matthews just dropped the boys off mum and dad are about to leave,come say bye"
"No" I said putting my guitar down
"Tara I know Ashton's your ex but you need to come see your parnets off"
"If I do you have go get me pizza ,deal"I saic holding out my pinky finger,Ben smiled
"Deal" he sakd wrapping his pinky around my own,

I walked down stairs finding my parntets at the door along with Ashtons parntets and Mason,"cya mum, cya dad have a great time"I said hugging them as I pulled away Ashton walked into the room our eyes connected for a second before I looked back to my mum,
"Well see better get a move on"
"Okay, drive safe"
~*~
Ten minutes later they were finally gone I turned to walk back to my room,
"Not so fast"Ben said it mentally groned,
"Oh yeah, you owe me a pizza" I said trying to distract him from what he was about to say,
"No not that"
"Dude, you made a pinky promise, you can't break those,I don't care how old you are" I said
"Just go sit in the living room now"
"Ugh fine" I said walking into the living room only to see Mason and Ashton already in there ,
"Uh No" I said turning around,I didn't make it far before Ben lifted me and placed my on the couch across from Ashton,
"We need rules" Ben started
"Okay well why don't you leave a copy in my music room,which is were I'm heading now"
''Sit''
"fine want a rule I got a few"I said looking Ashton in the eye
"One, stay out of my way
Two, keep out of my music room and
Three if I see Katie here ill break her spine" I said walking out.
~*~
It change into my p'j shorts and single beforeI grabbed my guitar out of my room and heading to my music room, I spent the next hour in there playing and re-playing songs to get them right, I hear about knock on
The door,
"What?" I said, Ashton poked his head though the door,
"Didn't' I tell you to stay out of here? "
"Yeah, bu-"
"What do you want then "
"To talk"
"Go talk. To Katie" I snapped
"Tara,please listen" he pleaded
"No"
"Why are you being such a bitch?" I got up chair walking over to the door
I pull him by his shirt so our forheads are resting agest each other
"That's just the way I am"I whispered befor pushing him out the door .
~*~
Jake:Hey Tara, are you home?
Tara:Yeah, r u comimg over
Jake:try stop me
Tara:true
"Tara?" Ashton's voice came though my room
"What now? " I out
"Are you okay? "I didn't answer
The next thing is know he is sitting on the end of my bed,
"What do you care"my voice sounding stronger then I felt,
"I care, I always care"I sit up resting my back on the head bored
"If you care so much why have Katie rub it in my face that she got you, that she found a way to get to me, why be...be so"
"Why be so, what?"
"Cold, why be so cold"I said holding my ground looking him in the eye,
"I-I...I don't know"
"You don't know" I said raising an eyebrow"you have no idea what you actually did, do you? " he didn't answer "thanks for lowering my already low self essteam,thanks for taking my happiness,my life, and thank katie for taking my reason to smile " I said my voice cracking at the end ,
"I'm sorry"
"Then why do it in the first place"
"I -I don't know"
"Do you know anything" before he could answer my door opened jake stood there he looked at me with a smile on his face,his smile dropped when he saw i was crying his eyes flickered to Ashton,
"What did you do?" He said but before anyone could say anything instood up and ran to him trowing my arms round his neck
"Thank you so much for being here" I whispered to him as he wrapped his arms around my waste
I unwrapped my arms from around him,
"i have a song i wanted to go over" he said
"okay cool,lets go" i said walking out of my room to my music room.
leaving Ashton behind.