My Fucked Up Life

Chapter 27)

I start my car looking in the mirror at my tear stained cheeks, I quickly reapply my make up I look semi presentable,i throw my hair in a messy pony take,looks okay.

I pull out of the school turning in the radio, Shannon noll's 'lonely' came on, i turn it off not eating to think about Ashton's voice (lonely is the song Ashton sung in like the third or so chapter)

The next station played 'see beneath your beautiful'
"You know what world,fuck you" I say turning off the raido.
~*~
"I'm sorry I'm late,i had to talk with my teacher" I say as I walk into the café.
"It's okay,you sure your okay working by yourself" she asked
"Positive" I put on my best smile.
"Okay take twenty minutes to set yourself up then I'll leave" she said
I nod heading out the back.

"Bye" she said
"Give lil pil my love" I smile as she walks out the door,the café is quiet, about six people in right now.

"what can I get for you?" I ask the guy who walks up,
"Your number" he smirks
"Sorry,i can't give my number to costumers" I smile politely
"Come on babe, I won't tell your boss"
"I'm sorry sir,I'm going to have to ask you to leave" I say sternly,
"Don't be like that" he pushed
"LEAVE" a voice shouts. I turn to see Steven (my boss) standing at the door "don't come back" he says sternly
"Thanks stevie,i didn't think you were working today"
"I'm not" he says
"Oh"
"I needed to ask you something,two things actually"
"Shoot"i smile
"Well first one is from my brother, he owns the bar your other works at,he is looking for a part time bartender,asked about you,i told him I would ask" wow
"Uhh,yeah that would be great. as long as it doesn't mess with my time here,what next"
"From my sister, you remember Sussie,she needs a dancer, she needs to present a routine,as part of her application for a job,she wants you" he says hopefully.
"Stevie,you know I haven't danced in months" I say quietly
"I know,but you're amazing, which is exactly what she needs. it means a lot to her" he pleaded.

I stoped dancing two months ago. Thing with my dad made my body fragile,i couldn't preform the moves I needed to.
I gave it up. I miss it.

"Leave me her number" i sigh" and your brothers,i call them when I get home,or when it's not busy"
"Thank you so so much, I owe you one,well two" he sighs handing me a piece of paper
"No problem,do you want anything to drink?" I offer stashing the paper in my pocket
"No thanks,i should head out,see next week" he says
"Bye" I say as he walks out the door.
~*~
"Bye" I say to the last woman walking out, I flip the sign to 'closed' an dim the lights.

I turn in the music as I clean up,stacking chairs on tables,cleaning the coffe machines and so on.

I flip though the songs until I'm happy with my choice
"A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same" he will never look at me the same. how can you tell someone something that will ruin iow they see you.

"But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face"
This is why I kept my mouth shut.

"I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby" part of me is glad he found out,this way it's only going to hurt him less in the end.

"But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah." One more night please

"The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh, yeah, yeah" it doesn't get better,if it's anything I've learnt it's that

"I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, its only you and me"

"Everything I know, and anywhere I go (oh whoa)
It gets hard but it won't take away my love (oh whoa)
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love, whoa, oh, oh" I need to leave,find somewhere I don't have to see him everytime I wake up,everytime i eat.

"I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me"

"Bravo" I turn to the sound of slow clapping,
"Kyle" I whisper
"Surprise bitch" he smirks
"Leave" I shout "get out!get out of here" I scream, he stalks towards me. take a step back. "what do you want?"
"Well Tara, you have been very rude to me,that hurt my feelings" he said I pull out my phone dialling jake" I wouldn't do that,it will only make it worse"
"I swear if you come near me I will kill you" I step forward
"Ohh,I'm so scared"
"GET OUT,NOW" I tell taking a step forward "I won't ask again" I growl
In response he hit Me, one punch to the stomach
"JAKE! AT THE CAFÈ,HELP". I scream knowing he is on the phone,
"Shut up bitch" he threw me to the ground, he climbs on top of me punching me everywhere
"JAKE HURRY"

Jake's P.O.V
"Hello" I answer Tara's call,
"I wouldn't do that,it will only make it worse" a voice said, I sit up in my bed
"Tara,who was that?" I say
"I swear if you come near me,i will kill you" she says, u run down stairs
"BEN!" I yell putting the phone on speaker
"What? He says
"JAKE!AT THE CAFÈ,HELP!" She shouts
"Who was that?" Ben asked
"Tara!" I shout running out the door, the cafè is three blocks over, I run faster than ever before.
"Jake" I hear a voice say, Ashton "what are you doing?"
"Tara,cafe" I pant out.

I run into the cafe seeing Tara on the floor, someone sitting in top of her,
"GET OFF HER!" I yell,i tackle him off of her "Kyle,what the fuck"i yell "how many times do I have to beat you up" I punch him in the face.
"Tara" Ashton yells running over to her
"NO!" She screams "DONT TOUCH ME!"she screams "JAKE!HELP" I hit Kyle again making sure he can't get up, I run to Tara's side "shh,tara,its okay, I'm here"
"K-Kyle" she says crying
"That prick" Ashton says as he stands up, he pushes him agest the wall punching him in the face.
"Ashton!stop" I shout pulling him off
"Why are you defending him,he just beat Tara" he yelled
"YOU DONT KNOW THE HALF OF IT" I shouted in his face "call Ben, and the cops, I'll calm her down" I walk back over to Tara oh is in the corner shaking.
"Tara" I say softly "it's okay,im here"
"J-Jake" she hiccups
"Yeah"
"You came" she says quietly
"I always do" I smile
"Yeah,you do" she says "my head hurts" she says
"I'll get Gail's mum to take a look at you,after the cops take this asshole away" I say she nods.
"Thank you"