My Fucked Up Life

Chapter 24)

"You're already working today" mic said
"I know, I just need to come in a bit earlier,why don't you finish early,spend some time with Lilly"i offer,she thinks about it for a minute
"Well, I suppose" she says
"Awesome! I'll be back after first period, I have a music assessment, I'll be back" I peck her on the cheek.

~*~
"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine"Ashton sings strumming his gutair.

"Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all"
If you would fucking listen to me I thought bitterly tears beaming in my eyes

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all"
A tear falls down my face.
"The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all" our eyes lock

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all"
He finished as my phone rings, I quietly make my way to the back of the room
"Dad". Answered
"You bitch!" He drunkly slurred
"W-what" I flinched
"You told your brother, oh you wait until I get home girl"
"You're not coming home" I say hanging up I'll make sure of it.

Bens P.O.V
Jake: she's in music
Me:Thanks
I make my way into the performance hall just as Ashton is finishing his song, I see Tara walk to the back I the room answering her phone.
He flinched, a second later she hung up,she runs a hand though her hand,
I walk over to her.
"Tara?" She faces me,her eyes are slightly puffy as she blinks away tears
"Hey" she gives me a fake smile, I pull her into a hug
"I'm so,so,so sorry Tar,if I'd had know the bastard would be dead, I'm never going let him touch you ever again, I promise" I say kissing her head
"It's not your fault Ben" she mumbles
"Tara,did anyone else know?" She shakes her head."we have to have a talk later,you know that right?"
"I know" he gives me a small nod, I unwrap my arms from her,we turn back to the class as Ashton walks off the stage.
"Who's next?" Sammy asked
"Me" Tara says taking centre stage a few of the guys following.

I meant it, he will never touch her again.
I'll make sure of it.