My Fucked Up Life

Chapter 14)

I ran my hands over the piano keys I'm home alone.
I sit closing my eyes thinking about my day.
Ashton kissing Katie.
My fingers played to their own tune.
How could he kiss her then act like nothing happened.
He lied to me.
Calm down Tara.
"Tara?" I look up to see Mia
"Yeah"
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah"
"Are you coming with us?"
"Nah,work early tomorrow"
"Okay well me,ken,mason Lilly and Ben are leaving now"
"Okay,but wait I have a question"
"Shoot" she said sitting next to me
"Do you have feelings for ken?" Her face dropped then went red
"I-I n-no of corse not" she said quickly i gave her my don't-bullshit-me look "yes" she whispered
"Okay,thats all"
"Okay? I thought you two were a thing" okay what even
"Umm..no why"
"Cause he talks to you"she mumbled
"About you" I smiled so did she"now go away" I shooed she laughed and walked to the door "and Mia"
"Yeah"
"You deserve someone as great as him.but don't break the poor boy"
"I won't promise and thanks" she said
"No more mushy shit leave" I shut the door on her face.
~*~
"Tara" someone said
Don't turn around
I hear the click of the door locking I kept playing
"Please talk to me" it was Ashton
"What about?" I said not looking up
"Today,you never let me explain"
"I gave you a chance to explain.i Sean to give you quite a few chances.but you seam happy to throw them back in my face" I retort still playing my gutair.
"Would you stop with with the gurair for five fucking minutes" he yelled attaching it from my hands.i stood up pissed off,
"What?" I yelled in his face.
"You...you get so pissed about Katie kissing me but it's okay for you to shove your tongue down peoples throats,stop being such a hypocrite" he yelled at me
"What the fuck are you on about?
Cause I'm a lot if things in this world,but. A slut ain't one of em,for fucks sake the only guy I've ever slept with is you,so what you in about"
He pulled out his phone seconds later he shoved it in my face.

It was a picture if...me kissing Kyle.
I have my arm wrapped around his neck.it was months ago at a party.

"You're a fuck wit" I laughed he looked very confused to say the least."that was a month ago actually two,at a party."
"You see anyone can say a photo is old but nobody actually knows"
"You calling me a liar?" I said my anger returning.
"I'm asking how I know of its true"
"Look at the picture" he did as I said
"What about it?"
"Look at my wrists"
"There's nothing on it"
"Exactly" I said
"How dose that prove anything?"
"Because,i don't have a tattoo in the picture" I flashed him my wrist
Life is beautiful it read
"Oh"
"Oh?,yeah next time you should really thing about shit before you act,luke I know you play football,but you're still a nerd,use that brain" I yelled pushing his chest."you're a fuck wit,you're a fuck wit" I repeated pushing his chest.

That photo still shining in my face.
That night.
The memories started flowing.

I felt my pulse quicken my breaths came out short pants I back away from Ashton and slide down the wall.
Trying to wait out my pannick attack.

"Tara?" He said wrapping me in his arms"Shh,its okay,iv got you,you're okay" I buried my face in the creole of his neck and let the tears flow.

About fifteen minutes later I had calmed down,but now I was really tired.
"Ash" I whisper
"yeah"
"Can you carry me to bed?" He laughed
"Sure" he stood picking me up bridal style, I buried my face In the crook of his neck.he opened my bedroom door and carefully placed me on my bed,
"Ash,one more thing"
"Yeah"
"Stay" I smile shyly
"Okay baby" he sat next to me.
"You should go put on your pjs" I said"cause I need to" I added
"Good idea" he said placing a soft kiss in my forehead before walking out.
I quickly jumped up and put in my pj shorts and a tank top. I brushed my teeth before walking out.

As I walked out of my bathroom shutting the door behind me Ash walked backing to my room in a pair of long pj pants and a tank top I jumped into bed an he followed.
"Ash,we have a problem"
"What's that?"
"You still have a shirt on" I said grabbing the hem of his shirt dragging it over his discarding it in the floor.
"Your turn" he said taking off my shirt.

Calm down guys I have a bra on.

"Tara"
"Yeah?"
"I've missed this" he said as I snuggled agest him "I've missed you" he said I paused for a moment"me too"
"Sleep"
And I did.

A/N
I wasn't gonna end it here but decided it would be the best spot to end it.

So I had AFL tonight and I am sooo tired
We won (yay) I got a goal (yay) and now imma sleep (read for a few hours)

Laters
SarahXx.