(A/N i don't own the song/lyics)
i roll over only to fall on the floor.
ow
i pick up my blanket and pillow off the couch and head back to my room trying not to wake eveyone in the lounge room.
i hear someone i'm my music room i poke my head in.
" Sittin in a hotel miles from nowhere Thought that this would be my happiness" it's Ashton on the piano,
" I look at the phone and pick it up For the millionth time I put it down again"
i forgot how beautiful his voice is.
"I know I let you go And I've got no right to know
Do you ever get lonely baby Don't you ever get tired of living that way Don't you ever wonder whether there's a better life, Out there, yeah Do you ever think about what we had And how you'd give anything to get it back Do you ever think you'll never love that way again" i slowly sneek into the music room standing not to far behind him.
"Wondering if only Do you ever get lonely"
yes yes i do Ashton i screamed inwardly
"I look around the room and wonder When it was and how my life has changed I'm surrounded by a million so called friends And I don't even know their names Oh,no
When all that you love is gone And you you feel like you don't belong Oh,tell me"
i want to but i cant argh
"Do you ever get lonely baby Don't you ever get tired of living that way Don't you ever wonder whether there's a better life, Out there, yeah Do you ever think about what we had And how you'd give anything to get it back Do you ever think you'll never love that way again
Wondering if only Do you ever get lonely" the beauty of the lyics mixed with his voice was enough to make anyone cry,i know i am
"I know that this world has changed us Now we're nothing more than strangers But do you think aboutme ever Do you think we belong together"
YES! NO! I DON'T KNOW!
"Do you ever get lonely baby Don't you ever get tired of living that way Don't you ever wonder whether there's a better life, Out there, yeah Do you ever think about what we had And how you'd give anything to get it back Do you ever think you'll never love that way again
Do you ever miss me wishing you could kiss me If only you could hold me Do you ever get lonely
Like me.... " he finished beautifuly
"that was amaizng Ash" i said letting his old nick name slip he jumped at the sound of my voice causing me to laugh
"sorry"
"it's okay,what are you doing up?"
"i fell off the lounge'' i said embarssied
"oh,are you okay?" he said walking over to me his voice full of concern
"yeah..."
"are you really sure" he said moving even closer to me until our chests were touching
"y-yeah" he lowered his head to mind i quickly took a step back
"what are you doing?"
"Tar look i'm sorry"
"sorry?you're sorry" i asked in disbelife
"what more do you want me to say" he said his voice raising
" i don't know!"
"mabye its because i'm not in the worng!"
"look Ashton,i know i fucked up,yeah i realised that a while ago,
but what i did what i said was.nothing,i spoke my mind" i said holding my ground he looked almost shame faced,
"Sorry i didn't bow down,i'm sorry i tried to move on"
"just...i don't even know what to say to you!"i said taking a step back
"well...don't say anything" he said walking toward me,
"Ashton...what are you doing" i said taking a few steps back shaking my head at him i was pressed agast the wall his lips hovered over mine
"Stay out of music room" i whispered walking out the door and into my room locking Ashton out.
~*~
You know that moment when you wake up after you have the weirdest.dream then you realise that it wasn't a dream,
yeah well this is what is happening to me it's curently 6AM i've had about four hours sleep so today i might be a bit bitchy...well bitcher anyway i walk over to my wardrobe and pull out some fadded ripped jeans and a black tank top i walk out of my bedroom and into the bathroom.
twenty minutes later i'm clean and dressed eveyone is starting to wake up for school now well i'm kindda the person you would blame for that,
what tell me when eveyone is asleep in the one place you havn't wanted to run around banging a metal pot with a wooden spoon...i suggest it,it's really satsifying.
so now i'm stuck with breakfast duty.
i put the last pancake on the plate as i turn to put them on the bench i see jake and gail...sucking face
"guys please not here" i said breaking uo their makeout session.
Gail took a seat blushing a whole new shade of red,
next to come into the kitchen was Mason and Ben.
"morning boys" i greeted them
"are they pancakes" Ben said smiling
"you don't miss much do you"
"you're the best sister ever" he said.trying to hug me,
"Ben please,don't touch me until you've showered" i said pushung him away laughing along with the others,
"What are we laughing at?" Ashton said,eveyone turned and looked at him while i turned and washed the pan in the sink i grabbed my IPod and earphones out of my pockets and blocked the world and my problems out.
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My Fucked Up Life
Teen FictionTara Wilson was never one to follow rules, but thats' the way she liked it. Music is her love, home is her escape. But how do you escape something living in your house. Tara's parents go on a 26 day cruise with her ex Ashton's parents, nothing new...
