My Fucked Up Life

Chapter 11)

"I've got to leave now if I don't want to be late" I told Ben "ask Ashton to drop Lilly" I said
"Wait,why are you leaving early?" He asked right I should have told him by now opps
"I'm singing at the assembly with our schools today" I said he looked shocked
"Oh ah,good luck" I nodded and walked out.
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Why do our schools have joined assembly's you ask.
Every five weeks our local public and privet schools gather to celebrate the achievements of the children in our community.

Yeah right that's just how they say pissing contest. What school can claim the most achievements.

I have 25 minutes until I'm up for my first song I walk tithe bathroom and fix my eyeliner and lipstick I walk out hearing a giggle I walk towards the sound.
You know that moment when you see something you wish you hadn't like opened your eyes in the wrong part of a movie or walked in in your parnets being all couple like.

This was that moment.
Ashton was up agest a locker with katie.
Nothing big right.
Expect the fact her lips were pressed to his. I felt my stomach drop as I push away the memories I turn and run down the hall,
Refusing to cry I make my way backstage I find I find Sammy
"Sammy" I said he has a clipbted an a head set "I need to chage my songs" I said out if breath
"Why?" He sounded panicked
"I just need to"
"To what?"
"Leave it to me" I said walking over to the sound system"i just need one mic" I said pulling out an aux for from my bag
"When I go in press plug in my iPod and press this song" I said,

"Tara,something want off plan,we need you out there now" Sean said
"Okay let's go" I said I was introduced I took my spot.
My eyes scanned the students until they found his eyes the music started playing.

"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears"
I started looking him in the eye
"And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here" I looked at Ben he had a proud smile in t
His face
"And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears" I looked Ashton in the eye
"When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me" he gave me a slight smile as I gave home a light glare his smile dropped
"You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me"
I found all if my friends sitting I the frount row Gavin winked at me causing a smile in my face
"These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me" my eyes started watering
"These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me"" a single tear slipped thankfully nobody seamed to notice
"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along" I held out the last note
" When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
You still have all of me, me, me" as I finished all of my friends stood up cheering like idoits as were Ben and his mates I walked of stage
"Tara thirty minutes" Sammy said I nodded and went back to the bathroom it didn't look like if been crying it washed my hands and splashed water to the back of my neck.
As I was leaving the door opened and who should walk in why Katie if course and her minions
"Oh god girls it's the reason for our sudden hearing loss" she said with a giggle
"You know if you guys are suffering from 'sudden hearing loss' they can't hear you" I stated
"Oh by the way can you get Ashton to save me a seat we have something to continue" she said as I opened the door
"Sorry tables full" I said walking out

Ones chance gone.
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A/N
So I wasn't sure what song she was gonna sing I had a few in mind but as I was on Facebook this morning this song was in a video and I'm like this one!
Okay that's all I wanted to say
Laters;)
SarahXx