The Sunset Between Us

Chapter 14

This weekday went okay except the day me and Daphne fought. Nakaupo ako ngayon sa study chair ko habang nagsusulat ng pinapagawang essay sa amin dahil kailangan na tong ipasa before sunday.

Habang nagttype sa laptop ay napatigil ako ng sumagi nanaman sa isip ko si Gia at nagreminisce na nga ako ng tuluyan.

Normal lang to dahil I admire her as my bestfriend, oo yes bestfriend!

Andito nanaman ako sa sitwasyon na iniisip kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman ko sa kaniya, straight ako eh tapos bigla biglaan nalang magiging ganito for her? Wait... Me? Gay? FOR HER?!

Pero what if? What if tama si Cleo na ngayon ko lang narrealize ang totoong sexuality ko?

“Fuck it.” I murmured.

I then look into the mirror beside my laptop and blankly stare at it.

“I think I'm bi.”

I said to myself.

“I think I'm bisexual.”

Take a deep breath, look into the mirror and say it again.

“I'm bisexual.”

Those words, it kept repeating in my head.

I burst into tears realizing what I just said. So many things rushed into my mind. My family, what about my family? They wouldn't like this... I don't like this.

Once na malaman nila to they would treat me differently— maybe hindi na nila ako matanggap sa pamilya—or even worse ay baka hindi na ako isang Salvacion.

Ano nalang ang maiisip ng ibang tao sakin? The girl they knew, the one that has many boys lining up on her, the one that flirts many people on different universities likes girls...

Hindi ko ata kakayanin to. I have my friends who supports me kahit ano pa ako pero what about me? Do I support myself being like this now? I thought kilalang kilala ko ang aking sarili pero I was wrong the whole time.

My hands were shaking from all this sudden shit, I grabbed my phone and called Irish as fast as possible cause I know that she's still awake by now. Once she picked up the phone I immediately ask her for help bursting into tears.

“Paparating na ako diyan! tatawagan ko rin si Gia para may kasama ako at baka sakaling mauna siya kesa sakin. Wag mong bibitawan yung call, kayanin mo Serenity!” that's the last thing I heard before my eyes went black pitched.

I woke up by the brightness of the lamp beside me, I slowly opened my eyes seeing a blury figure of a person sitting and laying her head besides the bed.

Once my eyes were cleared I started to realize that the blury figure sleeping was Gia, that's the time I remembered what happened before I collapsed.

Maybe I made a sudden movement that made her awake and as she woke up her movement also startled me which made her worried.

“No, it's okay.” I spoke giving her the assurance.

Still sitting besides my bed, she puts on a calm and soft voice asking me what happened or if I have anything that I remembered.

“Uhm... kasi...” I felt awkward. Not because on them finding me on the floor but the reason why I'm into this situation now.

She then hold my hand and caressed it gently while staring into my eyes wandering around the room.

“Hey? Kinakausap kita, look at me when I'm talking to you.” saad niya as she moves my chin using her hands to face her.

Bigla akong namula dahil don, balikuin mo pa ko Gia.

Nang makaharap ako sa kaniya ay tsaka na niya nakita ang namumula kong mukha na agad ko namang tinakpan ng kumot.

Narinig ko ang tawa niyang parang musika pakinggan, ang sarap ulit ulitin.

Pilit niyang kinukuha ang kumot sa akin upang makita ang mukha ko dahil hindi ko ito binibitawan ngunit sa huli ay nagtagumpay pa rin siya.

“Hoy gago namumula ka na talaga tsaka mainit ka, saglit kunin ko lang yung mainit na tuwalya para mapunasan ka na.” kinuha niya na nga ang tuwalya at ipinunas sa mukha ko.

“Sooo, may balak ka bang sabihin sakin yung reason or no?” tanong niya habang pinupunasan ang aking kamay.

“Its about my sexuality.” Nang sagutin ko ang tanong niya ay tumingin naman siya sa akin at tinaas ang isang kilay.

“Sexuality mo? What about your sexuality?” pagtatanong niya ulit.

I took a deep breath and answer her question.

“I already realized my true sexuality, I'm bisexual.”