Julious
"Kanina pa kita hinahanap."
Nag mulat ako ng mata at nilingon siya. Kalmado na at blanko ang mukha niya.
"Bakit, takot ka na baka tumalon ako?"
"That's not a good joke, Tammy."
Naglakad ako palapit sa railings ng deck at sinandal ang likuran ko, "Who said I'm joking, Leon?" Of course, I would never do that, hindi pa ako baliw at isa pa, I don't think suicide is an option. I'd rather die stress or sick than take my own life. I am more scared to my Creator than this life.
But, when I see how Leon is contemplating my words, maybe it'll be fair to see him be stressed as well?
He took small steps directing to me.
"That joke took so many lives. You wouldn't believe how many records we have regarding people who jumped out of the ship. It is frustrating and concerned as a ship company."
He stood beside me, facing the horizon.
"It is not a joke, Tammy. This ocean has more secret than a man has. I'm not even certain if they are only suicides."
He stared to me, makahulugan iyon. Puno na ng pangamba at trauma. Something I've never seen into a man's eyes.
Time flies so fast. We are now both handling companies, and not just a small company.
I cleared my throat.
"You know it's not my intension," sambit ko. I now feel guilty for talking about a very serious thing for him. I took it lightly when it's concerning for him as an owner of a ship company.
Binali niya ang tinginan naming dalawa.
" 'Yung matanda, sino siya? Bakit wala ang pamilya mo sa party?" pag iiba ko.
I've never seen that grey man before.
"It's a very long story to tell, Tammy....and you are right,maraming nagbago," he chucled.
Humarap siya saakin. Sa gitna ng init ng araw, at ang sinag nito ang tumatama saamin ni Leon. I can spot his adonis features.
Surely, malayo ito kung bakit ko siya nagustuhan noon. This is not just about his smiles because absolutely this is something else.Something deeper....that if I dig in....I might get lost and drown.
I don't know if I want that idea.
I'm scared I may get shattered,too....again.
"Right now, I'm alone with this ship....with you."
Hindi agad ako nakasagot. I know I shouldn't let myself be drown, but how?
"Don't play with me, Leon -"
"Why not because you're now married?"
He chuckeld.
"Come on, Tammy. I know you're just using it as an excuse."
My brows furrowed. how can he sound so sure to his conclusion?
"Don't be so proud, Leon. I married him for a reason -"
He grabbed me to my waist. I can feel his chest squeezing mine and his manhood....I can sense it.
"For what?"
I tried to push him,but I'm not strong enough to do it.
And dalawa kong kamay ay nasa dibdib niya at ginagawa kong pagitan namin.
"Leon -"
"Whatever that reason is, I'm certain that is not because he is better than me. If I would only know, you would marry him....binasag ko na sana ang mukha niya noon."
