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"How are you feeling?" Si Leon ang bumungad saakin nang imulat ko ang mga mata ko.
Nakaharap siya saakin.
Napahawak ako sa ulo ko. Bahagyang kumikirot ito. Hindi ko rin gaano maimulat ang mga mata ko dahil sa bigat.
Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal na nakatulog.
"What time is it?" I ignored his question.
Pagkatapos kong umiyak sakanya sa parking, dumeretso kami sa unit niya. Hindi na ako nakapag palit ng suot, pero pagkagising ko ay damit na puti at tanging undies ko nalang ang suot ko.
"It's eight o'clock in the evening," he said while still staring at me.
"Why didn't you wake me up?"
We supposedly leave at six o'clock.
Umiling siya.
"We can leave any time we want," aniya.
Hindi na ako nakasagot pa.
We were staring at each other for only-God-knows-how-long.
Ako ang bumasag sa titigan namin.
For some reason, I feel conscious with his stares. Pakiramdam ko ay may dumi ako sa mukha.
"Stop glaring," sita ko sakanya.
I don't feel beautiful at this moment because of my eyes. Surely, I look dumb, and I hate that he's not even bothered by it.
Kinuha ko ang kumot at bahagyang tinakpan ang ibabang mukha ko. I'm covering my nose and mouth.
Nagkunot siya ng noo, " There's no need to do that, " aniya at binaba ang tela na humarang sa mukha ko.
"I'm sorry if you have to see me with all the bullshits," hindi ko napigilan sabihin.
Dahil sa mga nangyayari ngayon, hindi ko maiwasan isipin na pinagtagpo kami ulit ni Leon sa maling pagkakataon.
Sino ba naman mag aakala na magkikita pa kami ulit?
After so many years, there was no communication and updates.
Everything happened swifly.
He moved closer to me. He wrapped his arms around me.
"You don't have to apologise. Like what I said, I'm here, I got you."
"I came a little late, but I'm here now. You don't have to hide your tears anymore. You can always cry and expect nothing will change. I'll stick by your side."
Never in my dream this day would come. That I will be able to feel safe with someone. I've lost my faith with new beginnings, I thought the world forgot me, but because of Leon, everything was renewed. I start to see hope and light again.
However, as I feel different from Leon, I can not lose the fear that this might come to an end.
I know I can live on my own. I am certain that it wouldn't be hard for me. Pero kapag naiisip ko na matatapos ang meron kami ni Leon, sumisikip ang dibdib ko. Bumibigat ang paghinga ko at para akong mababaliw. Something that I felt when I lost Mommy.
Maybe because I have never been this happy since Mommy passed away. Or was it really Leon that was my heart longing? With all the questions left unanswered until now.
Why didn't he call me when he told me he's going to? Where was he in past years? What really happened to him?
According to him, as far as I can remember, I am the only person he counted as great about his past?
