In love.
Tumalikod na ako sakanila. Sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na dahilan, my feet couldn't move. It is not because I have some problems with my muscles on my body, but because of the thought that I've said something wrong.
Is this the life that I want to have? To hide everything's important to me, just because not everyone can understand it or accept it?
Fuck no!
Muli akong humarap sakanila.
Halata sa mga mata nila ang pagtataka.
No matter what I say or do, I know everyone will say something, so better be true.
"Actually, he's not just a friend."
Malakas man ang kabog sa dibdib ko, I managed to say.
"He's special to me... he's my boyfriend," dagdag ko pa.
Para akong natanggalan ng malaking tinik sa lalamunan ko.
Alam ko na sinira ko ang usapan namin ni Leon. Ako ang humingi sakanya na itago kung ano ang meron kami pero heto ako at ipinaalam.
Ganito pala ang pakiramdam na mailabas ang katotohanan.
Leon doesn't deserve to be hidden. He deserves more than anything, more than just my Paramore.
"I respect your beliefs and opinion, but this has nothing to do with your friendship with Mommy. And I will appreciate it if you'll acknowledge our boundaries," sambit ko at tuluyan silang iniwan.
If there's one thing I want Leon to have from me, that is my love and respect.
I know he's like a protector to me, eversince we met. And now, if there's anything I can do to protect him too, I would do it.
Win or lose, he has my love forever.
Malawak ang ngiti ko nang makita siyang nakahiga sa buhangin at sinusulit ang araw.
Namumula na ang balat niya at mas lalo nagiging tan.
I walked and sat beside him.
Nakapikit siya pero alam ko na naramdaman niya ang pagdating ko.
"Are they finished with the food?" He asked while his eyes were still shut.
"Almost," tipid kong sagot.
Binuksan niya ang isa niyang mata para tignan ako.
"Are you enjoying here?"
"What?"
"Let's go to your place," sambit ko.
"But you said you want here," umupo siya at nilingon ako.
Puno ng buhangin ang likuran niya.
Nagkibit ako ng balikat.
"I just don't want here anymore," palusot ko.
Hinuhuli niya ang mga mata ko pero mailap ako.
"What's wrong?" He worriedly questioned.
And now, finally, he captured me. He cornered my stare like I don't have any place to go.
"I-I....I just want to make this week special....I want us to enjoy and be far from any conflict."
Nagbuga ako ng malalim na hangin.
Pinagpagan niya ang kamay niya at hinuli ang buhok na humaharang sa mukha ko.
"If that's what you want," he said. He tucked my hair behind my ear.
