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• 𝗚𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗪𝗵𝗼 🩷

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Y/N's POV, 1986

The partying lifestyle has never really been my thing, though, I was happy to go along with it in the name of being in love with Nikki Sixx. We'd been together for a number of years now and I didn't agree with many things Mötley Crüe did but in the name of love I'd do anything, even if I hated it.

I worried about Nikki, more and more as each day past given he was falling further and further into a drug addiction. I didn't know how bad it was, not truly, I only knew some of the states Nikki got himself into, I knew it was bad but I think I wanted to remain ignorant to just how bad his addiction was, as long as I couldn't see the needles and the drugs entering his body, I could lie to myself over the truth.

I should confront him but I've seen how he gets when anyone says anything about it to his face, and chose I didn't want to have him push himself away from me.

Nikki was on tour at the minute and I'd been at home, that was up until I got a call from Vince regarding Nikki and something which happened last week, Vince and I had always had a good bond and despite the fact the bonds between the guys in the band was tense at times especially recently, Vince cares and knew that I'd want to know what he had to say.

He revealed Nikki had overdosed last week while out with a couple of the Hanoi Rocks guys in London, on Valentines Day, he'd even rang me that day, though that was before the OD, but still, it happened that day and I hadn't known until Vince rang me a couple of days later.

Nikki had called me the day after that OD too, yet said nothing, I heard in his voice he wasn't telling me something, like he wanted too but couldn't seem to do it and so didn't. I wanted to press it on that call, get him to tell me but thought he'd had a bad day or something and trusted he'd tell me if something really bad had happened.

I understood why Nikki didn't tell me but I still felt like he should have told me, I deserved to know something like that and Nik was always good at making things out to sound not as a big deal as they actually were.

Vin told me everything he knew of the overdose, he said to me as much as he could get out of Nikki after overhearing Andy McCoy talking to the bassist about it at the show the night afterwards.

Because what Vinnie said had scared me to death, he asked Doc if he could arrange for me to fly out for a surprise visit and join them on the road, and the manager agreed to this because he thought it might keep Nikki more under control.

Vince was confident it would make Nikki happier as he'd apparently been a right miserable bastard most of the tour and it's gotten even worse since the OD. I knew I could improve Nikki's mood but I wasn't sure what else I could do, I'd try and do anything I could though to help.

I was on my way to the arena the guys were playing tonight after flying out to their location, Doug had come and picked me up and was in the car with me filling me in on everything he felt I needed to know ahead of seeing Nikki which wasn't much more than I knew already but did give me a little more insight.

I'd thought about how I'd react when I see Nikki, and chose to just act normal, because at the end of the day, he was alive, no serious damage had been done, but I would still confront him on why he didn't tell me and approach the drug topic carefully. He needed to hear it even if he didn't want too, maybe he'd hear the criticism of the drugs out more now this has happened, and I know he's still gotten defensive with Doc and what not but I wasn't Doc, so I had more of a shot.