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Y/N's POV, 2002

I wasn't one for attention, never had been and probably would never be but because of my introverted nature that makes being with a celebrity all the harder. It was a constant battle between wanting everyone to know I was hopelessly in love with Nikki Sixx and never wanting anyone to ever know we were together.

My career was a model, not a huge successful one but I'd been in a few music videos and had done a couple of ad campaigns for various products like perfumes. That's how I met Nikki, met him ten years ago after being in a music video and then meeting Nikki at said music videos album release party.

It took us a few years to get together given he was married when we met, we started out as friends but when his marriage to Brandi fell apart, that opened a door for us to explore the tension between us which had been there for years. And we'd been together ever since but not openly.

Nikki had always respected the fact I didn't want the attention and didn't want the criticism I'd inevitably get from being the girlfriend of a rockstar. And it had worked well thus far, but it was starting to crack around the seams a little because Nik was an attractive man, a very attractive man and the fact he'd been 'single' for so long brought questions itself and was bringing more attention to Nikki and therefore making our relationship more difficult to keep hidden.

We'd been pictured together recently, and rumours about us were flying around and to combat this, Nikki and I had formulated a plan. Well, it was mainly my idea if I'm being honest, as far as the 'we need an idea to stop the press from sniffing around'.

He'd done an interview today, and we'd just gotten home from it and the idea we'd come up with had been implemented in said interview. We'd agreed to use a mutual friend Donna D'Errico as a way to throw off the attention from the pictures of us. And I'd been completely fine with this, while we were chatting with Donna making sure it was okay, all the way through until today.

But then, Nikki sat down got asked about his love life and I watched as he said that he and Donna were 'hanging out' and I suddenly wasn't as okay anymore. There was just something about Nikki saying that they were 'close' and smirking as if to say 'close in more ways than one' which just made me feel so insecure.

We'd gotten home from the interview and I was sat on the couch watching TV, wrapped in a blanket while Nikki was off in the kitchen making coffee. My mind wasn't focusing on what was playing on the screen though, I was just wallowing in my insecurity and replaying Nikki's answers about Donna over and over in my head.

And when Nikki reentered the room, and put the coffees down on the coffee table, before I could even realise the words coming from my mouth, I found myself saying "Why'd you mention Donna like that?"

Nikki stopped and looked at me curious, instantly knowing what I was referring to as it was fairly obvious "Because you don't want anyone to know we're together?"

"Yeah, but... did you have to act like that? Donna might get ideas."

"What?" He laughed confused "She's well aware of the situation, I don't think we could have made it clearer to her. Anyway, she's your friend, she's cool with helping us cover things up. Why is it bothering you?"

"Why is my boyfriend saying he's dating another woman bothering me? Gee, take a wild guess." I huffed sarcastically, knowing I couldn't really say anything because it was my idea to keep things under wraps and I had agreed to the whole 'use Donna to throw off the press of the scent' thing. I don't know though... seeing it done in front of me bothered me more than I thought it would.