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This was a request from GloriaMolociStefania, so, thank you so much, sorry this took so long to get out! I know this was originally meant to be a smut request but I felt it better to be a fluff piece, hope you don't mind that too much!

Hope it's still enjoyable! :) 🩷

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Y/N's POV, 2003

It was hard being with a celebrity, being thrust into that world with the attention, the press and the scrutiny that came with it from both media and bitter fans. It was even harder when I was with a man as widely loved as Nikki Sixx, and there was an age difference between the two of us.

He was forty four while I was twenty seven, it was seventeen years, and while to some people that might not sound that bad, I knew it was still a lot of years, almost an entire child from baby to adult and I knew it'd get backlash being with him but I will admit I hadn't been prepared for exactly how much.

When we first started seeing each other in early 1996, after meeting each other just as his marriage to Brandi Brandt was failing, we started of friends then a few weeks after their divorce was finalised, Nikki asked me out on a date. At that point I was twenty, he was thirty seven, and as soon as that reached the press they doubled down on it like I was nobody's business.

It was crazy for a while then calmed down as people lost interest in it and the music magazines and celebrity gossip columns got new muses, but it was all thrown up in the air again when we got married in late 2001, and it hadn't ever really died down.

It was less about the age gap now, although it was still used as a ploy to make Nikki out to be some weirdo or me out to be a gold digger, they knew it was more effective to exaggerate anything that happens or straight make up stuff to warn people about the dangers of dating someone older than you. I don't know why they thought it was necessary to do that but that's the narrative I find in things written about me and Nikki.

Like I said, I totally get the hesitation over our age gap and trust me, it was never my intention to fall in love with him, never in my wildest dreams, but it happened and here we are. There's nothing left to really say, I didn't need to press to make me some kind of money hungry whore who's fishing for fame by marrying a rockstar. I didn't want to be a cautionary tale to parents about making sure to watch who your daughters are dating or that our relationship was a mistake and that Nikki will ditch me when I get too old and no longer look good stood next to him, I can make my own choices and my own mistakes. If Nikki ever did that then fuck him, but the press shouldn't say he'll do that like they know exactly who he is cause they don't. I do.

The things written don't bother me quite as much as they used too, I realised it was just part of life now but that doesn't mean every now and again there's something that gets to me a little more than it should do.

Like today, it was an entire page of one of the rock magazines talking about Nikki then a paragraph entirely ripping apart and slagging off our entire marriage, it was quite vile actually and because of that, it just wouldn't leave my head. I probably shouldn't have even given it any attention but I was at the store and saw Nikki's name and then mine on the cover and couldn't resist it.

I mean, it's natural right to want to know what people say about you even if you know it's going to probably hurt your feelings and get under your skin, making you all kinds of pissed off and upset yet can't help but need to know as some kind of self torture or simply morbid curiosity.