my angel / hyunlix

THE DECISION

HYUNJIN'S POV

I froze.
He asked him to be his BOYFRIEND?!

"what did you say?" I asked him. I was secretly hoping he said no

"I told him to give me some time to think. I need to figure this out."

I felt kind of relieved. But that quickly faded away.

He didn't reject him. He just needs time to think.

"wanna talk about it?" I asked.

He nodded and pointed at the exit.

We went out.

Was he really gonna say yes to him?

We sat at a bench in a park.

"So, will you say yes?" I asked him

please don't, please don't, please don't

"I don't know. I don't know if I like him that way."

I stayed silent.

"I mean, i know him for a long time. He was there for me when I needed him."

I was there too, Felix

"but when I start dating someone, I want to see future with them. I don't know if I can picture it with him. I mean yeah, he's my best friend, but I don't know if I want to spend my life with him. You may think I'm being dramatic, but it's important to me." he said

I can see future with you Felix....so clearly...

"So, what will you do?"

"I don't know. I guess I could give it a try, but I don't want to loose him as a friend. He's really important for me."

What about me? Am I important for you?

"I mean....you have to decide that yourself Felix, but don't feel pressured. You don't have to date him just to please him. Do what is best for you."

Do what is best for you, be mine

"I mean, you're right. I will think about it."

I nodded.

Felix was really tired, so he asked me if I want to end it here and see each other tomorrow.

I agreed.

After all, I couldn't stay focused. After what I just heard.

Will felix actually date him?

I couldn't think straight.
I went to my house and straight to my atelier.

I looked at the painting of Felix.

I could treat you so good felix. I could be the best boyfriend you would ever had. You could see the future with me.

I went to my room and I sighed.

Why am I like this? It's not like I like Felix....