my angel / hyunlix

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FELIX'S POV:

I was laying inside the bathtub I chose to end my life in.

I was holding the blade in my hand, shaking.
was I really just going to do this?
was I ready for this?

and...what about hyunjin?
am I ready to leave him here?

tears were falling from my eyes just when I started thinking about hyunjin.

hell, what was I even doing?
why was I doing it?

I shook my head, getting ready of any other thoughts.

I wanted to die, I can't back off now, I can't be miserable anymore, I can't take it.
I have to be selfish.
for once in my life, I have to be selfish.

my mind went blank.
no thoughts.
no thoughts about hyunjin.

all I could see was the blade in my hand, that slowly made its way to my wrist.

I took a deep breath.
only few minutes were parting my life and death.

I did it.
I slid the blade down my wrist, making the biggest cut I could.

It hurt, but I sucked the pain.
I quickly took the blade and put it on my other hand, doing the same thing I did to my second wrist.

I then just relaxed my body, as I felt the warm water surrounding me.

I could see the blood slowly making its way into the water, and it felt somehow....comforting?

there was no turning back now.

I closed my eyes.
I could see hyunjins face.

And I started to wonder...
what is he going to do now?

I send him a long message, explaining everything just before I placed myself in this bathtub, in my coffin.

all I could hear was his laugh, all I could see was his smile, and all I could feel was his touch.
the touch that kept me safe.

I was slowly losing my consciousness.
I felt the end nearing.

just then, the door to my bathroom opened.
I couldn't see it, but I could hear it.

"Felix oh my god, oh my god!"
I could recognize that voice anywhere.

hyunjin?
was that him?
what was he doing here?

I tried opening my eyes, but I was too weak.

"Baby, it's okay, you will be okay. Don't worry, I'm here with you. Please baby, don't leave me like this. DONT LEAVE ME!!"

his voice was so far away, that I feared I wouldn't be able to hear him in a while.

I felt his hands wrap around my fragile and limp body, but even his touch felt distant.

"HELP!!!!"

he screamed, and even tho I was so close to loosing consciousness, I could hear the pain in his voice.

but he was here with me.
now, I wasn't afraid.
I wasn't alone.

and the last thing I felt was his touch, before I loose consciousness forever.

A/N
do you guys even remember this story?😭
idk if someone will read this honestly 😭

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