I'm currently have the worst flare up in my life.
It's almost entirely because of trauma. That being, I'm going back to the school that traumatized me my whole life.
I've realized that during my flare:
-Everything, everywhere, is burning hot. I'm living in a fucking volcano.
-Sounds are so much louder. It feels like my ears are constantly bleeding (it doesn't help that my sister randomly runs on the treadmill with no warning whatsoever).
-Everyone around is dumb, stupid, and/or so fucking slow.
-Everyone is against me. Fuck, even I'M against me!
-I am always fucking angry and upset.
-I'M SO FUCKING TIRED. I am always in a deep sleep.
-It feels like 2020 all over again.
-Everything hurts. I'm always in excruciating pain.
-I can't sleep at night. At all.
I'm in a cold bath and it's bothering me right now. I went to have a bath to wash the pools of sweat off my body, and not even halfway through, the water turned fucking freezing cold for absolutely no fucking reason at all.
I wanna watch the world burn.
This bath is making me itchy. And I hate being chilly on the outside because when I piss, it will be so much warmer than the rest of me, and it's so fucking uncomfortable.
It's Thanksgiving day, too(I'm Canadian). I want stuffing.
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Burn -- A Biography
Non-FictionEver wanted to know what its like being Autistic in Canada? Or wanted to walk in the shoes of a chronically ill person for a day (probably not)? You've come to the right place! I'm Kody, an autistic person with an unknown chronic illness (probably P...
