UNDERCURRENTS(GxG)

Chapter 37- Chase

Chapter 37

Blair was giving me a questioning look the entire time we are at the school garden.  Kakatapos lang ng class namin this afternoon. Ngayon nandito kami para mag-usap. Hindi talaga siya tumigil kakatanong magmula kanina.  Hinatid kasi ako ni Aya sa class.  Magang maga yung mata ko nun kahit nag suot ako ng anti-radiation glass, hindi pa rin naitago.

Aya didn't ask me anything, she said if I'm ready to share then she'd listen.  Wala akong narinig na kahit anong tanong sakanya.  Pero iba kasi ugali ni Blair, may pagkachismosa talaga to minsan. 

Hindi ko nga maitanong sakanya yung nangyari with Leira eh, pero ngayon mukhang wala ng balita sa dalawa.  I think it was just a fleeting emotion because they were drunk that time.  I don't know.  If I had to share this thing in my head, I'll make sure that she'll share what happened between her and Leira.

"I thought I was your best friend, K. I really believed in our 'always got each other.' What happened to that? You know I'd never judge you, and now, it feels like I don't even know what's happening anymore." May himig pagtatampo ang boses nito. 

Magkatabi kaming nakaupo sa bench.  Hindi ko rin siya matignan kasi ang dami kong naging sekreto sakanya.  Ang dami kong hindi nashare sakanya.

Sandaling nag-tatalo yung utak ko kung dapat ko bang sabihin sakanya lahat.  Pero kasi ang bigat bigat na.  Napapagod na ko itago to mag-isa.  I know I can always trust Blair.  I know she won't judge me. 

I took a deep breath before speaking, "I've been thinking about sharing you this, B.  It's been going on for a couple of weeks now. And I'm not even sure if you'll truly understand."

"Try me, K.  Trust me" hinakawan nito ang kamay ko.  Madalang lang kami magdrama sa isa't isa.  Usually, kasi sa kalokohan ko siya kasama.  Sa mga adventures, sa thrill.  Pero hindi ko naman inaasahan na aabot pala sa punto na magiging ganito.  My sad girl era.

I cleared my throat, inihanda ko ang sarili ko sa susunod na mga revelation.  It's now or never.  Hindi ko na pwedeng patagalin pa.  I need to share this thing.

"B, I-ano kasi, how can I start this?"

"Just fvcking start, K!  Kating kati na kong malaman!  Kapag hindi mo pa talaga sinabi, I swear, I'm go-"

"I think I like someone."

"You like someone and that's the reason you've been crying? And who's the lucky guy?" Blair's brows furrowed in confusion; her concern momentarily forgotten.

I sighed, "It's complicated, B. It's... it's-"

"Ano ba! Sino nga?! Naiinis na ko"

"Ugh! Hindi ko masabi!" Naiinis rin na sagot ko rito. Atat na atat lang?

"Isa!"

"Dalawa"

"Tat-"

"Fine!  It's Miss Freya." There nasabi ko na.  Tumingin ako sa direksyo niya ngayon at saka ko nakitang unti-unting nanlaki ang mga mata nito.  Halatang halata yung pagkagulat niya, she was just speechless. Mga ilang minuto lang itong nakatingin sa akin.

Blair shook her head, "Like totoo ba? Hindi to prank? How?  I mean, I didn't know you were into women now."

"Why do you have that look?  Are you judging me?" naiirita kong tanong dito.

"No!  Of course not!  Hindi lang talaga ko makapaniwala, pero my gosh!  Si Miss Freya na yan eh, dyosa ng HLU yan!  Sino ba naman hindi mababaliko?  Pero paano?  At kelan pa?  Hindi ko nahalata."