07/11/2017
Lately I've been thinking too many thoughts
they eat me inside out
and the only way to get rid of them
if when I overdose
Lately my memories have me trapped
like I'm trapped within a balloon
I just float around with no air
then feel suffocated in the helium
Lately I haven't been feeling so good
the world just gets to me
my temples ache and assumptions collide
and I'm in between it all
Lately your words don't mean anything anymore
in from one ear but out of the other
my mind still stays blank from your assurances
and I do what I do just to hurt myself a bit more
Lately my scars seem darker than my blood
they peel away like unwanted crust
and become unknown and strange
like unfamiliar skin
Lately numbness has gotten the better of me
I can't feel the wounds on my heart neither can I provide some sort of healing
and then when it seems too much
it pains more than it ever has before
Lately I haven't been feeling alive
my pulse is there but the reason to live seems non-existent
my body is there but my soul seems tied up to the ghosts
and I feel no one can be more dead than I feel this instant
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If you dig, you will find there are many reasons to live. Blessings that are often overlooked with the world's turmoil. You just need to find one that's good enough to keep you going and to motivate you to be strong. Maybe this one will be good enough- you are here because God wanted you here for a purpose. You can never go until He doesn't determine it, so with the life you have try to be happy, try to do things for you in search of joy and purpose to make your life worth living. If you were worthless or had no reason to live, God wouldn't put you on this earth. Find your meaning because you are full of life and it's waiting for you to embrace it. And finally, remember so many people are going through what you are going through because we are all human and this feeling is universal. You will never be alone in your situation ever.
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PoetryA Composition Of Thoughts, Feelings and Rants I never expressed out loud *** "Poetry is what happens, when you feel like nothing else can" Started in 2016, still updating till present ~~~~~...