It's a new day
And today
I'm writing again after what seems like
A long period of time
And i'm just writing what i feel
Should be said.
Things...
That have got to me
Lately
And they're bugging to be read.
So first thing,
Why do you say that you care
When really you don't?
Why do you say that you understand
When really you never have?
You just pretended to be the light in the dark;
The angel sent from heaven.
You played your formality as a friend,
supposing it was enough and then
Left me to my condition.
I dealt with my problems alone
In numerous ways; some more distressing than others
Maybe because, it was
Too much for me to bear
Or because you would make your own assumptions on it anyway
Like you always did, assuming
My life was some sort of amusement for you
To be a part of but not to take much action about.
Second thing; you.
You made the nothing
We had
Seem like it was something special.
You cared enough to listen;
To what i had to say but maybe
You didn't understand either because if you did,
You wouldn't have left me wondering
And waiting for what you had to say...
You made me believe In something
That was more
Than an ordinary nothing,
You made me hope
In wishes
Like they were always heard by God.
You made me dream
Of a future i could only ever imagine
Now,
But you hurt me; like no one
Ever had.You ruined me slowly
By keeping my heart in your custody
You made me waste my energy:
My blood, sweat and tears...
You cared.
But you didn't care enough
And i have a lot of questions,
Questions for you
And you.
Number one, who do you actually think you are
That you'll throw it all away?
Didn't it have any meaning?
Do the memories have no real value?
Two.
Was i just an emotional rollercoaster
You had to put up with?
Were we just 'best friends' by name?
Was my life just something
You could talk about?
And three.
What about the times when we actually had fun?
What about when we really considered what we said
Before we hurt each other?
What about when i was actually there for you
And you were there for me?
I guess
We cared. But we didn't care enough
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The Things I Never Said [To You] | inksmoker
PoetryA Composition Of Thoughts, Feelings and Rants I never expressed out loud *** "Poetry is what happens, when you feel like nothing else can" Started in 2016, still updating till present ~~~~~...